hmm......
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Another... 3 more days to my exams. Feeling the stress building up.. shit shit.. Exams suxs badly. =/ I miss working in DBS AH!!!..
Everyone should be having fun.. partying their nights away.. and i.. stuck at WCP.. writing pages after pages of notes.. preparing for my exams. AHhh... SOON... let me pass through these 2 weeks of "No clubbing".. these 2 weeks of "torture".. I WILL BE BACK PARTYING! Wait for me people!!!.. Life is boring.. when you are gonna have exams soon. There's no party, no fun.. except.. revisions after revisions...
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Receive an email from gee my poly classmate with her newborn baby pictures in there.
Ahh!! i am so happy for her!!!.. Having a lovely family with a lovely child! Hmm.. currently having my exams soon.. have not visited her yet.. will go over one of these days after my exams!
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Sometimes.. i really wonder if i am ready to settle down, ready to start another new relationship. Looking at how fortunate things are going around my friends, makes me envious.. yet at the same time.. i question myself "am i ready for a commitment?"
i do not know what i want, i do not understand what i need. Friends who just got to know me, says i am too stubborn, too wild. Friends who know me too well, says i am too nice. Yeah.. i know, i am too stubborn to listen to anyone. I just wanna do things my way, and when i fall, i only blame myself. That's me. That's why i am always getting hurt.. cause i am too stubborn to let go... till he let go.
"learn how to love yourself before loving anyone else.." thats what they frequently tells me.. "stop being so nice to your guy.. learn to play hard to get.."
I am trying!!.. but trying is not good enough!! cause that is me!! i dont expect anything in return!! i just need them to sense my presence to appreciate me thats all i ask for!!.. ok.. i guess thats not enough. =/
Are all humans like that?.. they never know what is good to them till they lost it?.. Must human learn the hard way?.. even so.. isnt it all too late?..
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"I choose to live my life this way.. and i blame noone.."
Everyone should be having fun.. partying their nights away.. and i.. stuck at WCP.. writing pages after pages of notes.. preparing for my exams. AHhh... SOON... let me pass through these 2 weeks of "No clubbing".. these 2 weeks of "torture".. I WILL BE BACK PARTYING! Wait for me people!!!.. Life is boring.. when you are gonna have exams soon. There's no party, no fun.. except.. revisions after revisions...
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Receive an email from gee my poly classmate with her newborn baby pictures in there.
Ahh!! i am so happy for her!!!.. Having a lovely family with a lovely child! Hmm.. currently having my exams soon.. have not visited her yet.. will go over one of these days after my exams!
_________________________
Sometimes.. i really wonder if i am ready to settle down, ready to start another new relationship. Looking at how fortunate things are going around my friends, makes me envious.. yet at the same time.. i question myself "am i ready for a commitment?"
i do not know what i want, i do not understand what i need. Friends who just got to know me, says i am too stubborn, too wild. Friends who know me too well, says i am too nice. Yeah.. i know, i am too stubborn to listen to anyone. I just wanna do things my way, and when i fall, i only blame myself. That's me. That's why i am always getting hurt.. cause i am too stubborn to let go... till he let go.
"learn how to love yourself before loving anyone else.." thats what they frequently tells me.. "stop being so nice to your guy.. learn to play hard to get.."
I am trying!!.. but trying is not good enough!! cause that is me!! i dont expect anything in return!! i just need them to sense my presence to appreciate me thats all i ask for!!.. ok.. i guess thats not enough. =/
Are all humans like that?.. they never know what is good to them till they lost it?.. Must human learn the hard way?.. even so.. isnt it all too late?..
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"I choose to live my life this way.. and i blame noone.."
posted by icy at 10/23/2005 01:32:00 AM
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