I Simply Hate Myself lots..
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Totally disgusted with myself. Totally disgusted with how humans are. Full of hatred why am i like that. I cannot believe that i actually reacted that way... How i wish i could go back as a child. With no hidden feelings towards anyone.. if i hate someone, we just simply said it in front of their face. If we love someone, we just show it to him/her..
Why.. as we grew up.. we become more and more fake.. Hidding true feelings towards each other. Hidding the love/hatred/saddness/jealousy.. etc.. We dont even know who are backstabbers, we dont even know who has hidden hatred towards one another, we no longer are pure.. humans.. being corrupted as we grow old.. we become evil.. greedy.. scheming.. we backstab.. we starts to hate.. we start to have "revengeful" thoughts at people..
What were we when we were young? we never thought of revenge.. we just forgive and forget.. we totally do not know what is hate.. children.. pure.. sweet.. innocent.. totally ignorant of what is going around in the world.. do not have to worry about how to survive in this world... The cruel world.. which makes everyone a snake..
I wish.. i could.. go back.. time.. and never grow old.. I wish to be child like.. I wish that the world.. could remain that pure.. but it is never going to happen.. for as we grow old.. circumstances.. situations.. experience.. "trained" us.. corrupted us.. killed us...
Why.. as we grew up.. we become more and more fake.. Hidding true feelings towards each other. Hidding the love/hatred/saddness/jealousy.. etc.. We dont even know who are backstabbers, we dont even know who has hidden hatred towards one another, we no longer are pure.. humans.. being corrupted as we grow old.. we become evil.. greedy.. scheming.. we backstab.. we starts to hate.. we start to have "revengeful" thoughts at people..
What were we when we were young? we never thought of revenge.. we just forgive and forget.. we totally do not know what is hate.. children.. pure.. sweet.. innocent.. totally ignorant of what is going around in the world.. do not have to worry about how to survive in this world... The cruel world.. which makes everyone a snake..
I wish.. i could.. go back.. time.. and never grow old.. I wish to be child like.. I wish that the world.. could remain that pure.. but it is never going to happen.. for as we grow old.. circumstances.. situations.. experience.. "trained" us.. corrupted us.. killed us...
posted by icy at 10/20/2005 11:50:00 PM
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