boring day..
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Goodness.. i didnt go out yesterday night and the whole of saturday.
why??.. well.. i am cashless now.
Cant go anywhere.
Have to save on transportation expenses and meal expenses..
*sigh* utterly broke..
This is .. SHIT!..
Had a conversation with a friend today..
I realise that my life is going round and round..
I am making the same mistakes over and over..
yet i am not doing anything to stop it..
Simply because.. i am too emotional.
Used my heart to think and feel too much.
My brain is only used for studies. Decision making? its my heart that is doing the work..
No matter how much i tried. I can never make a rational decision.
Is this consider weak??
i'm in so deep now.. that i can only keep going forward.
Unsure.. whats in front of me..
More heartaches? More Depression? More saddness? or.. will things turn out better??
I wonder..
I wonder too much that.. sometimes.. i'll have suicidal tendence every now and then.
Is this me??
Does anyone know or understand why am i doing this?..
I only.. prays.. that.. it will come someday.
Or.. someone to save me??..
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"Waiting.. Waiting... Waiting... Patiently.."
why??.. well.. i am cashless now.
Cant go anywhere.
Have to save on transportation expenses and meal expenses..
*sigh* utterly broke..
This is .. SHIT!..
Had a conversation with a friend today..
I realise that my life is going round and round..
I am making the same mistakes over and over..
yet i am not doing anything to stop it..
Simply because.. i am too emotional.
Used my heart to think and feel too much.
My brain is only used for studies. Decision making? its my heart that is doing the work..
No matter how much i tried. I can never make a rational decision.
Is this consider weak??
i'm in so deep now.. that i can only keep going forward.
Unsure.. whats in front of me..
More heartaches? More Depression? More saddness? or.. will things turn out better??
I wonder..
I wonder too much that.. sometimes.. i'll have suicidal tendence every now and then.
Is this me??
Does anyone know or understand why am i doing this?..
I only.. prays.. that.. it will come someday.
Or.. someone to save me??..
_____________________________________________________
"Waiting.. Waiting... Waiting... Patiently.."
posted by icy at 11/20/2005 02:44:00 AM
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