Bleeding Once Again.
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Each time it happen, i will go through this full cycle of heartache.
Tell me, is it wrong for me to feel.
Tell me, is it wrong for me to act like this.
I do not know how to handle it as i used to be in the past anymore.
where i.. used to hide in a corner.. Simply shutting down from everything for a day.. and the next day pretending nothing has happen..
Thoughts.. of what is going on..
Thoughts.. of what might happen..
I seriously wish my brain will stop imagining.
How to.. when you knew.. the other one.. treats everyone equally..
How to.. when you knew.. its no special treatment you are getting..
How to.. when you knew.. you are simply insignificant..
Images.. of the laughter.. the happiness.. while i on the other side.. crying.. hurting..
yes, i'm paranoid. But who wun?
Would any girls be able to take what i'm going through?
YES I KNOW I AM FOOLISH! YES I KNOW I SHOULD HAVE LONG BE GONE!
BUT ITS HARD.. I CANT FIND THE COURAGE TO DO IT!
Do you understand what i am going through?..
Do you know the pain that is inflicted on me?..
Do you realise i am bleeding?
Do you know.. that i am always waiting for the return..
Then again.. i'll be pretending that i dont mind..
I'll be putting up.. a false & brave front..
A smiley face.. joking and laughing like i always do..
but do you realise.. behind the smile.. are tears and pain..
I am.. bleeding from within..
I am.. dying from within..
do you know.. i'm crying right now..
Tell me, is it wrong for me to feel.
Tell me, is it wrong for me to act like this.
I do not know how to handle it as i used to be in the past anymore.
where i.. used to hide in a corner.. Simply shutting down from everything for a day.. and the next day pretending nothing has happen..
Thoughts.. of what is going on..
Thoughts.. of what might happen..
I seriously wish my brain will stop imagining.
How to.. when you knew.. the other one.. treats everyone equally..
How to.. when you knew.. its no special treatment you are getting..
How to.. when you knew.. you are simply insignificant..
Images.. of the laughter.. the happiness.. while i on the other side.. crying.. hurting..
yes, i'm paranoid. But who wun?
Would any girls be able to take what i'm going through?
YES I KNOW I AM FOOLISH! YES I KNOW I SHOULD HAVE LONG BE GONE!
BUT ITS HARD.. I CANT FIND THE COURAGE TO DO IT!
Do you understand what i am going through?..
Do you know the pain that is inflicted on me?..
Do you realise i am bleeding?
Do you know.. that i am always waiting for the return..
Then again.. i'll be pretending that i dont mind..
I'll be putting up.. a false & brave front..
A smiley face.. joking and laughing like i always do..
but do you realise.. behind the smile.. are tears and pain..
I am.. bleeding from within..
I am.. dying from within..
do you know.. i'm crying right now..
posted by icy at 3/29/2006 05:58:00 PM
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