I wonder..
Monday, March 27, 2006
I wonder.. how did i manage to survive...
I wonder.. how did i manage to tolerate...
I dunno how long more.. can i keep myself going.
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Have anyone of you been in this situation whereby.. you knew the one you love, has another in his/her heart..
will you, still stay by his/her side, hoping that he/she will realise one day, that you are by their side
or..
will you.. just fuck it, its not worth my time, and move on?
Alot, will choose.. to stay.
Some.. (those stronger ones..) will move on.
While.. i belong..
to those that choose to stay.. and be the insignificant one.. hoping for a little attention..
I am.. one of those.. who will foolishly, holding on to that one tiny.. little "Hope" and sheer moment of "Happiness" knowing well.. it will only turn into more pain.. when the "expiry date" comes..
Time and again.. i wish to just.. put an end to my life.. to this misery..
For.. i do not have the courage to put an end.. to my little "hope" and my short-term "happiness".
Even tho i know.. i am not the most important.. the most significant.. person in that someone's heart..
Even tho i know.. i never had any place in that someone's heart before..
The truth is eating me up.. from within..
and.. my hopes are getting smaller.. and smaller..
Pretending not to mind.. is getting.. harder.. and harder.
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Just wondering..
People.. would you prefer.. to know the truth even tho you knew it will freaking hurt like hell..
or would you prefer.. the other person tells a white lie?.. as long as you dont find out?
I cant get an answer myself either.
I wish.. the other person would tell a white lie.
But i also know.. i can find out truth easily.
... truth or lies?
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What if one day.. i suddenly die due to an accident..
Will you guys miss me?
Will all of you realise.. my presence?
will all of you miss my smiles, my craziness, my act cute behaviour?..
I wonder.. how did i manage to tolerate...
I dunno how long more.. can i keep myself going.
___________________________________________________________________
Have anyone of you been in this situation whereby.. you knew the one you love, has another in his/her heart..
will you, still stay by his/her side, hoping that he/she will realise one day, that you are by their side
or..
will you.. just fuck it, its not worth my time, and move on?
Alot, will choose.. to stay.
Some.. (those stronger ones..) will move on.
While.. i belong..
to those that choose to stay.. and be the insignificant one.. hoping for a little attention..
I am.. one of those.. who will foolishly, holding on to that one tiny.. little "Hope" and sheer moment of "Happiness" knowing well.. it will only turn into more pain.. when the "expiry date" comes..
Time and again.. i wish to just.. put an end to my life.. to this misery..
For.. i do not have the courage to put an end.. to my little "hope" and my short-term "happiness".
Even tho i know.. i am not the most important.. the most significant.. person in that someone's heart..
Even tho i know.. i never had any place in that someone's heart before..
The truth is eating me up.. from within..
and.. my hopes are getting smaller.. and smaller..
Pretending not to mind.. is getting.. harder.. and harder.
___________________________________________________________________
Just wondering..
People.. would you prefer.. to know the truth even tho you knew it will freaking hurt like hell..
or would you prefer.. the other person tells a white lie?.. as long as you dont find out?
I cant get an answer myself either.
I wish.. the other person would tell a white lie.
But i also know.. i can find out truth easily.
... truth or lies?
___________________________________________________________________
What if one day.. i suddenly die due to an accident..
Will you guys miss me?
Will all of you realise.. my presence?
will all of you miss my smiles, my craziness, my act cute behaviour?..
posted by icy at 3/27/2006 06:18:00 PM
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