negativeness is eating me up again.
Friday, April 28, 2006
damn, i thought i could suppress it.
After dinner be back?.. haha..
*sigh* do not tell me things when you knew its not.
knowing well that it will not end after the dinner.. but i still hope that you might be back earlier.
thankfully someone is here to accompany me. if not i'll go crazy again.
Thanks to my low confidence, its eating me up again.
No i do not wanna possess. No i do not wanna feel that sour feeling.
Its not my intention to. Never it was.. never..
But, its a progression over my side.
I no longer cry. I no longer feel the painful feeling i once feel every time.
Maybe, i am preparing mentally the lost in one month time.
Or maybe, i have finally mastered the art of suppressing myself.
Or maybe, i am begining to accept the truth.
Its never mine to begin with.
一个没有结果情...
A one side love. A one side feel.
hatred.. no calls. nothing.
why. why am i still here.
why do i still persist on towards a man who show no love.
why am i still loving someone who dun give a damn about me.
why.
why is my character so fucked up.
why am i so weak.
why am i so unappreciated.
why am i.. why am i still here..
why am i still hoping and waiting that he will at least give me a call.. no..
i wanna stop. stop it.
i cant. drinking. let me drink till i drunk so i can sleep peacefully now.
After dinner be back?.. haha..
*sigh* do not tell me things when you knew its not.
knowing well that it will not end after the dinner.. but i still hope that you might be back earlier.
thankfully someone is here to accompany me. if not i'll go crazy again.
Thanks to my low confidence, its eating me up again.
No i do not wanna possess. No i do not wanna feel that sour feeling.
Its not my intention to. Never it was.. never..
But, its a progression over my side.
I no longer cry. I no longer feel the painful feeling i once feel every time.
Maybe, i am preparing mentally the lost in one month time.
Or maybe, i have finally mastered the art of suppressing myself.
Or maybe, i am begining to accept the truth.
Its never mine to begin with.
一个没有结果情...
A one side love. A one side feel.
hatred.. no calls. nothing.
why. why am i still here.
why do i still persist on towards a man who show no love.
why am i still loving someone who dun give a damn about me.
why.
why is my character so fucked up.
why am i so weak.
why am i so unappreciated.
why am i.. why am i still here..
why am i still hoping and waiting that he will at least give me a call.. no..
i wanna stop. stop it.
i cant. drinking. let me drink till i drunk so i can sleep peacefully now.
posted by icy at 4/28/2006 10:38:00 PM
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