Once upon a time.. (BAH.. Cheezy start. >.<)

there live a girl in the north side of Singapore.. She was a simple and fun loving girl.. who yearn to meet the man of her dreams.

Initially.. she thought she found the one when she was 18.. until that fateful day where that man crashed her only dream and cast her into darkness..

So afraid of loneliess... she seek refuge at a lan shop.. where she met a lot of new friends..

Even tho she was laughing together with those new friends.. Internally.. she was crying. Noone knew.. Noone sense.. that She was hiding the truth underneath her cheerful smiles.. which she has mastered a long time ago..

Only him, who knew and took pity of that girl. He began to accompany her as his school was near her home. Out of pity… that they met frequently… out of pity.

She.. was lonely.. crying almost every night. Sleepless almost every night.. She thought.. maybe this man can helped me.. a bound back..

After.. a few weeks.. they got together. Out of loneliness, not love. A mistake made from the very beginning.

It lasted for 4 months. She had already… place most of her feelings into the relationship.. but he.. didn’t. he gave up 4 months later.. as he strongly feels that their character clashes with each other.

They broke up. She cried even harder then previously. Her heart almost couldn’t take the pain.. Thanks to her good friend A.. who accompanied her some of her days.. still…

She started searching for another.. as this time.. the loneliness was even harder to bare.. because.. she was together with that man everyday. With the sudden disappearance of that man… she couldn’t put her life back in one piece.

She met another. They got together. But she knew deep down.. she couldn’t forget.

She still kept in touch with that man. With occasional conversations held between them… and occasional meet up.. together with their common friend B.

A year later… she with the other broke up….

Disillusion with relationship, she begins to look for companion rather than relationship. She went back to that man side.

Just for the fun of it. Just for company. Just to kill loneliness. Instead.. it grew into something.. that she cant handle… love..

After a few weeks.. he revealed to her.. that he got together with B before.. and that.. during the occasional meet up… they had been together… he told the girl.. a lot of information.. which she don’t need to know.. which she rather not know.. but due to her own curiousity……….. and his insensitiveness.. thinking that the girl wouldn’t mind… it hurts… she tried putting it behind her.. but she simply cant.

She no longer talks to the common friend…

She bare with it.. gulping it down into her heart, throwing away her pride.. she stayed on. Because.. she can no longer do without that man.

With her energy and her time.. together with her heart.. she tried very hard to touch that man’s heart.. hoping one day.. he would realize.. she is just beside him.. waiting for his attention. Months after months, she was waiting for the day that he will accept her.

He.. was confused. He didn’t know to let go or not. Afraid to make the choice. Fearing of making the wrong choice.

He wanted to have fun..

A few months later.. the girl was hurt once again..

He hide the truth and was found out. He brought another girl back home… He thought the girl wouldn’t know.. since the other girl was only at his place for a few hours.

The girl found out accidentally… and her world crashed.. in her heart.. she only feel… pain. Unbearable pain. She asked if he has fallen for that girl.. he couldn’t reply..

She wanted to leave.. but too much was put in to let go.. they decided to give themselves till the man’s mum bd… to make the decision. To let go or not…

Joke? She wonders.. for.. it didn’t end. The man realize he actually miss the girl when she’s not around..

He decided to give it another try..

He gave her surprises.. he shown her care.. concern.. but never once.. his full heart..

They were happy for a moment… till one day… he become conscious that this is going nowhere…

He told her his decision.. to end it when he goes into manhood.

It was then.. it dawn on her.. time is running short…

She have less than a few months..

she only prays that.. she could build more happy memories for them..

She only wish that the man.. would remember her for life..

That’s all she wanted…

while she.. will always remember... the watch.. the.. surprise birthday cake.. the earring that they each owns 1.. the care and concern.. the gentleness of him...

She still prays that.. one day... he might.. he might.. go back to her...

But she knew very well... its impossible.