It seems that..
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
I have split personality.
Its scary.
and.. those who do not know me well, will think i'm like that.
And those who knows me well, will know that actually i'm not like that.
But like what?
I dunno.
My Mentor Explains to me earlier.
But i dun understand what he is trying to say.
I think i'm a complicated person.
Too complicated that i dun even know who am i or maybe i am too adaptive. I change so much to adapt to people around me that i forgot the original me.
Oh, dun worry, its not those bad split personality that i'll turn into a killer at night and an angel by the day.
Which is me?
Who am i?
I dunno. It also means, i'm still searching for myself for all these while, i'm just living a life for someone else.
Now that i needa face my life alone, its all messed up as i have too much freedom to have fun and play.
I'm just like any losers out there - refusing to work, just wanna have fun.
I'm just like those losers out there who refuse to grow up.
omg, what am i becoming.
I'm in Confusion.
And i can never decide something for my own.
So can someone please guide me?..
I just really do not know how to lead a life on my own.
I need to feed on someone else's dream and goals and helped that someone to achieve it.
funny hor? i also think so.
cannot do anything for myself, but will go all the way out for someone whom i dearly treasure.
=.="""
I kept saying i need to change. but have i changed in any ways? ~
at the same time,
my split personality shows up at other areas too....
~
i think i confuse other people as i'm confuse too.
so when confusion mets confusion it becomes big confusion. (lol)
I dunno what i want. I dunno who am i.
I dunno what suits me. I dunno how to do things.
I dunno i dunno i dunno!
Ok, i know "i dunno" is an excuse. there's nothing as i dunno, there's only something call "you just simply do not wish to face the truth"
yayayaya, that i know.
ok, leave me as it is.
I think i need a serious mental overhaul.
Its breaking down from my confusion.
I am such a confused girl, in a confused world, leading a confused life.
That i dun even know how to really go about leading my life.
-.-~
i'm so confuseddddddddddddddddddddddddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..
Its scary.
and.. those who do not know me well, will think i'm like that.
And those who knows me well, will know that actually i'm not like that.
But like what?
I dunno.
My Mentor Explains to me earlier.
But i dun understand what he is trying to say.
I think i'm a complicated person.
Too complicated that i dun even know who am i or maybe i am too adaptive. I change so much to adapt to people around me that i forgot the original me.
Oh, dun worry, its not those bad split personality that i'll turn into a killer at night and an angel by the day.
Which is me?
Who am i?
I dunno. It also means, i'm still searching for myself for all these while, i'm just living a life for someone else.
Now that i needa face my life alone, its all messed up as i have too much freedom to have fun and play.
I'm just like any losers out there - refusing to work, just wanna have fun.
I'm just like those losers out there who refuse to grow up.
omg, what am i becoming.
I'm in Confusion.
And i can never decide something for my own.
So can someone please guide me?..
I just really do not know how to lead a life on my own.
I need to feed on someone else's dream and goals and helped that someone to achieve it.
funny hor? i also think so.
cannot do anything for myself, but will go all the way out for someone whom i dearly treasure.
=.="""
I kept saying i need to change. but have i changed in any ways? ~
at the same time,
my split personality shows up at other areas too....
~
i think i confuse other people as i'm confuse too.
so when confusion mets confusion it becomes big confusion. (lol)
I dunno what i want. I dunno who am i.
I dunno what suits me. I dunno how to do things.
I dunno i dunno i dunno!
Ok, i know "i dunno" is an excuse. there's nothing as i dunno, there's only something call "you just simply do not wish to face the truth"
yayayaya, that i know.
ok, leave me as it is.
I think i need a serious mental overhaul.
Its breaking down from my confusion.
I am such a confused girl, in a confused world, leading a confused life.
That i dun even know how to really go about leading my life.
-.-~
i'm so confuseddddddddddddddddddddddddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..
posted by icy at 7/31/2007 04:04:00 AM
