If Only..
Friday, October 05, 2007
I could reverse time,
There are so much that i wanna change.
I used to think that i have so much time on hand for me to waste.
Looking at how my parents slog to make months end, and all i did was to spend and spend without understanding how hard it is for them to earn that amount of money.
Looking at how much my mom's legs hurts after hours of standing and yet i couldnt lift even a single finger to help her.
The air con in my house has broken down, and i couldnt even afford to pay some of it to ease the burden.
My brother intends to study overseas, and i am not able to help him in anyway.
All i did was being rude to them, ignored how much they pamper me.
It pains me to be not financially capable to help them.
I tried to avoid thinking about all these.
Yet, i'm pulled back to reality again.
I have not even repaid the debts i owe to them.
I have not even started.
All these while, what have i been doing?
Having fun, making merry.
I have to start working on my career once again.
To first repay my "study loan".
I hope i will not stray again.
I do not wanna hurt my parents anymore.
There are so much that i wanna change.
I used to think that i have so much time on hand for me to waste.
Looking at how my parents slog to make months end, and all i did was to spend and spend without understanding how hard it is for them to earn that amount of money.
Looking at how much my mom's legs hurts after hours of standing and yet i couldnt lift even a single finger to help her.
The air con in my house has broken down, and i couldnt even afford to pay some of it to ease the burden.
My brother intends to study overseas, and i am not able to help him in anyway.
All i did was being rude to them, ignored how much they pamper me.
It pains me to be not financially capable to help them.
I tried to avoid thinking about all these.
Yet, i'm pulled back to reality again.
I have not even repaid the debts i owe to them.
I have not even started.
All these while, what have i been doing?
Having fun, making merry.
I have to start working on my career once again.
To first repay my "study loan".
I hope i will not stray again.
I do not wanna hurt my parents anymore.
posted by icy at 10/05/2007 01:34:00 AM
