Selfishness.. and selflessness..
Saturday, December 22, 2007
I wonder..
Is it wrong to be selfish?
Is it right to be selfless?
Is there a right and wrong in the first place?
What makes it right? and what makes it wrong?
Some.. says that i am a selfish person - only thinking about myself.
Some.. says that i am thoughtful.. - always thinking for others.
I am.. half half.
I admit that i am selfish.
Who is not selfish in the world? (unless u are god)
Somehow, as we grow up, we begin to think for ourselves.
As, it is a dog eat dog world out there.
Noone protects u if u do not know how to protect yourself.
As u begin to protect yrself, u begin to become a little selfish.
Why the sudden post of this?
Because, i feel that today, i have the extreme selfish thoughts again.
I am trying to express myself so that.. i will let go of this negativeness.
It doesnt feels good as i know its a very.. negative thought that i have.
I couldnt tell anyone either, becoz i know it is wrong for me to feel so.
Buried deep inside my heart, its something that i will never express it to anyone.
Becoz... i feel so disgusted about I having about these thoughts.
Somehow.. i couldnt stop myself.
Each time.. when things happen, i will definitely have this sore feeling.
It sucks big time.
I am really trying hard to kick this selfish habit of mine.. alone.
Becoz i jolly well know... this is a fucked up selfish habit of mine that will "kills" something along the way.
i am somehow.. so fucked up can.
=(
fucked up fucked up fucked up!
Yes, its one of those gloomy days again..
Is it wrong to be selfish?
Is it right to be selfless?
Is there a right and wrong in the first place?
What makes it right? and what makes it wrong?
Some.. says that i am a selfish person - only thinking about myself.
Some.. says that i am thoughtful.. - always thinking for others.
I am.. half half.
I admit that i am selfish.
Who is not selfish in the world? (unless u are god)
Somehow, as we grow up, we begin to think for ourselves.
As, it is a dog eat dog world out there.
Noone protects u if u do not know how to protect yourself.
As u begin to protect yrself, u begin to become a little selfish.
Why the sudden post of this?
Because, i feel that today, i have the extreme selfish thoughts again.
I am trying to express myself so that.. i will let go of this negativeness.
It doesnt feels good as i know its a very.. negative thought that i have.
I couldnt tell anyone either, becoz i know it is wrong for me to feel so.
Buried deep inside my heart, its something that i will never express it to anyone.
Becoz... i feel so disgusted about I having about these thoughts.
Somehow.. i couldnt stop myself.
Each time.. when things happen, i will definitely have this sore feeling.
It sucks big time.
I am really trying hard to kick this selfish habit of mine.. alone.
Becoz i jolly well know... this is a fucked up selfish habit of mine that will "kills" something along the way.
i am somehow.. so fucked up can.
=(
fucked up fucked up fucked up!
Yes, its one of those gloomy days again..
posted by icy at 12/22/2007 05:28:00 AM
