Random Thoughts
Friday, February 15, 2008
A couple of my friends were kinda shocked that i do not have a valentine.
=/
very hard to believe meh?
he was like: "You sure no one asked u out? Not even one?"
YES! i'm SURE.
NOONE asked me out.
Or did i unknowingly rejected? no leh... i really dun have any one asking me out =(
(excluding David and Jason from my blog....)
However.... true enough...
My valentine for the day was Mahjong! Played with LY, JC and Bro Kurt.
Hahaha.. Lost 10bucks to LY.
Thinking back.
When was the last time.. i celebrated this day?
Till date, i do not have a definite .. clear memories of any man in my life did anything special on this day.
Maybe something did happen in the past.... but i have forgotten everything.
Except the first bouquet of flowers from reub that was sent to my place while i was out. Was it Vday or my birthday? i'm not sure either.
and...
The first present that JW bought for moi on his own accord was for vday. hahaha.
Another guy fren of mine was checking out with me, wat was the most.. touching thing that someone did for me for vday.
I told him straight in the face "nothing"
He was caught off guard and said sorry. lol.
Nothing to be sorry about.
Maybe i should feel sorry for myself, that noone has romance me before.
then again, I prefer practical man, so romance is out of question for such people.
If only....
I am a man. =/
My gf would be the most fortunate gf in this world.
lol.
I seriously have tons of ideas how to romance a girl. Unfortunately.. its not applicable in my life. This life. coz i'm not a bi. =(
-------
I am going thru a turbulence in my mood.
I'm not sure if i am happy or sad.
Maybe i should say i feel empty inside.
i dun feels lonely when i do not have a valentine.
Its the first time i do not have anyone by my side for vday.
I just feel that feb 14 is just like any other day.
And in the past... i dun think it this way.
Am i getting ... more and more oblivious to special days?
Even on CNY eve... i spent it alone at home playing Viwawa.
I no longer see a need to must die die go out or find someone to go out on these special days.
I can even spend one full day at home, watching shows, playing my game and together with my dog.
hmmmm....
Somehow i feel a change in me...
Not sure if its good or bad..
Maybe its good as i no longer... am so dependent on all my pals.
=)
at least.. now i know what i need to do. =)
=/
very hard to believe meh?
he was like: "You sure no one asked u out? Not even one?"
YES! i'm SURE.
NOONE asked me out.
Or did i unknowingly rejected? no leh... i really dun have any one asking me out =(
(excluding David and Jason from my blog....)
However.... true enough...
My valentine for the day was Mahjong! Played with LY, JC and Bro Kurt.
Hahaha.. Lost 10bucks to LY.
Thinking back.
When was the last time.. i celebrated this day?
Till date, i do not have a definite .. clear memories of any man in my life did anything special on this day.
Maybe something did happen in the past.... but i have forgotten everything.
Except the first bouquet of flowers from reub that was sent to my place while i was out. Was it Vday or my birthday? i'm not sure either.
and...
The first present that JW bought for moi on his own accord was for vday. hahaha.
Another guy fren of mine was checking out with me, wat was the most.. touching thing that someone did for me for vday.
I told him straight in the face "nothing"
He was caught off guard and said sorry. lol.
Nothing to be sorry about.
Maybe i should feel sorry for myself, that noone has romance me before.
then again, I prefer practical man, so romance is out of question for such people.
If only....
I am a man. =/
My gf would be the most fortunate gf in this world.
lol.
I seriously have tons of ideas how to romance a girl. Unfortunately.. its not applicable in my life. This life. coz i'm not a bi. =(
-------
I am going thru a turbulence in my mood.
I'm not sure if i am happy or sad.
Maybe i should say i feel empty inside.
i dun feels lonely when i do not have a valentine.
Its the first time i do not have anyone by my side for vday.
I just feel that feb 14 is just like any other day.
And in the past... i dun think it this way.
Am i getting ... more and more oblivious to special days?
Even on CNY eve... i spent it alone at home playing Viwawa.
I no longer see a need to must die die go out or find someone to go out on these special days.
I can even spend one full day at home, watching shows, playing my game and together with my dog.
hmmmm....
Somehow i feel a change in me...
Not sure if its good or bad..
Maybe its good as i no longer... am so dependent on all my pals.
=)
at least.. now i know what i need to do. =)
posted by icy at 2/15/2008 02:59:00 AM
