I just realise.. i have blogged for coming to 4 years. (started blogging in june 05 over at friendster)

Time really flies when u least expected...

I read thru my post. and i teared... Memories overflow my mind. Images starts coming back to my mind.

Yeah i am an emo freak. =P

Have you ever tried reading my blog from the first post till now?

What kinda of idea do u have with regards to me and my life?

What kind of person do u think i am?

What kind of impression do i give you guys?

Reading thru.. i saw my silliness, my sadness, my sheer moment of happiness, how i spent my life, How i rot myself during sch days.. what are the things i have done for my special one for my friends for my school for my work etc etc..

Pictures.. after pictures. Bits and pieces of what are the things i have done thru these 4 year began to flow back into my mind....

I'm not feeling happy recently.

Yet at the same time i lost the ability to let my negative feelings inside myself go.

And i also lost the ability to speak up.

All day long i hide i pretend.

Sometimes i totally forgot of my troubles. Sometimes i remembered them becoz something triggered it.

Someone mention to me before, that behind my smile, he could see sadness.

The happier blog entries seems to be a coverage of who i really am.

To confuse people that i'm actually happy and not unhappy.

A fren mention that i sound so sad on my blog, but when i'm out i will keep laughing and smiling.

So who am i?

Am i a sad person by nature or a happy person by nature?

All i can say it, both are me, real me.

I write sad things here becoz i tend to be more moody in the night.

just like now..

Going thru my entries to read and remember the foolish moments i have done and been thru so far..

4 years of blogging..

4 years of memories, locked in here.

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Fri:

Clubbing with Jeannie. How i get to know her? in summary: our ex bfs are good frens. She live so near me and at the same time we love the same club. Zouk! its the first time i club with her and it was so fun. =) There will be more to come!

Jean and me





Jean and her friend richard



Chris and i. My long lost ex colleague. I worked with him 7 years ago at a HP Fair. I remembered him while he forgotten me. My STM is a little crazy. I can remember things happen years ago but i cannot remember things happen within these few years.. like the floyd incident. lol.

i guess so much has happened these few years, that my brain cannot store everything.



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Sat: Theme park

Went to the theme park today as the free ticks that we gotten is epiring today.

I tell u....... it was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fuckinggggggggggggggg hot that it burns our skin when we sat at the inverter.

We gave up after 2hrs in there. We dun even wanna have fun. we just wanna hide in BK and enjoy the aircon.

I think it was near to 36degree? Kenny nearly had a heat stroke there. Jane and him turn red after the theme park.



Jane and i and kenny







Back at BK after some games. This is the prizes that they got from the game fair.





Chris da ge and his gf.



We were waiting for the food.. and started cam whoring



I like this pic! =P



Acting like a retard! i didnt know my forehead is so high till this pic! o.O!



We left at 4+ and headed back for a swim. it was wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy too hot.

Kenny youngest bro. He very cute sia!!!



After wet swimming we continued the dry style swimming with kurt joining us.

I am so freaking tired after todays full day event... OMG..

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我要的快乐。。