If only i could control time.. I wish i would travel back time and enjoy being a child once again.

Without having to worry about food, shelter, future and money.

All i do is eat play and sleep.

The process of growing up, is full of fun, laughter, pain, tears and turmoils. You are always faced with a crossroad, force to make a choice of where to go further.

We had to go thru processes of making the right decisions and the wrong decisions, learning bits and pieces of it, before maturing and growing up.

Sometimes i wonder why some people would mature faster and some will still remain child like, in another words - childish.

It was then it dawn upon me that, its the processes of life and the mentality that they took with their life.

Some would learn from their own experience, some would learn from other people's experience, while some refuse to learn from any, thinking that whatever he/she do is the right way never the wrong way.

The smarter ones will learn from other people's experience.

The not so smart one will learn from own experience as they believe that its always good to try and have a feel of whats right and wrong.

The... stubborn ones will always think that they are right, and its how i am, i dun give a damn about what others think about me, i just love to lead my life like that, i love to be childish, i love to be who i am what i am, and so who are u to judge me mindset. For such people, they exist only in their own world and they believe the world revolve around them and them only.

Unfortunately for them, this is not how life is.

At work, u have colleagues and bosses looking at u, passing judgment at u. Thats how appraisals comes about.

With friends, you are judged on how u handle the friendship, how much u treasure them, whether u will be there when they are down, etc. Back-stabbing comes along if handled poorly.

With family, they judge you with how big yr car is, how much money u have, how filial you are towards your parents, how respectful u are towards the elderly.

Judgment are made practically everyday. Even tho u may have done a lot of good stuffs in the past, but when you make one wrong move, whatever u have build in the past will go down the drain.

And moreover.. people judge you and your life on how successful you are.

Me?

I'm the not so smart one, trying to learn the smarter way.

I'm stubborn in the sense that i based on my feelings most of the time rather than my big brain.

Thats why i always end up making some wrong decisions in life causing myself much pain, only to regret why didnt i listen to my big brain.

Then again, its becoz of all these wrong decisions in life that make me who i am today.

I cannot say that i'm very mature.

But i can say i'm mature enough to handle the future crossroads that i'll be crossing with the help of my friends and mentors around me.

There's still much more for me to learn.. much much more.. and i'm trying my very best to learn what is there in life as fast as i could to avoid making future wrong decisions...

P.S: Note to self, now counter is 31724. lol. i wanna count if i got readers anot. hehehehe.