I always have this secret wish that i was born a man.

not that i'm intending to turn lesbian or anything.

just that if i'm a man.. things will be so much more exciting.

i'm a surprise lover.

i love being surprise and at the same time i love to surprise people.

becoz of my creativeness, i could come out with tons of ideas of how to romance a girl.

and yes, i love romance, and i really feel its one of the more important factor in a relationship.

Romance. Its not hard to romance a girl, neither is it .. easy.

it takes only some effort and some thoughtfulness.

yet, not many guys around.. are willing to put in that additional effort.

becoz of laziness or .. once they got the girl, they start to take things for granted.

is it so difficult to actually create romance or make that girl feel love?

actually.. no.

perhaps different woman has different kind of needs and wants, however, i believe most woman love to be surprised.

have u ever tried sending flowers to the office out of the blue?

have you ever tried to create suspense on a day event and bring her somewhere nice and fun without letting her know in advance?

have you ever out of the sudden pop out from nowhere with her favourite food?

have you ever for no reason send her an office email with i love you written all over it?

have you ever pretend to be out with some friends but actually was below her place with candles and sparkles.. and do it like what we used to do when we were kids.. just light up the whole place with candles and play sparkles together?

have you.. perhaps brought her to some nice places to watch the stars?

have you.. out of a sudden while out shopping, sneak off to purchase something she really wanted and she just couldnt bear to purchase it on her own?

have you out of a sudden while having just a normal dinner made the waiter bring a stalk of rose for her pretending that its yr anniversary?

there's so much things that you can do that doesnt cost alot.

who says romance needs alot of money?

you just need to think out of the box, and always be keeping a look out on how to surprise her.

surprises happen when she least expected.

surprises doesnt happen when she expect something to happen.. like her bd, yr anniversary, etc.

romances can be there every other day, if you are willing to put in the extra effort to make it happen.

but looking at which love language she is in, if she is more of a words person.. writing emails full of i love you.. sending a card with all yr love inside.. etc would be better.

if her primary love language is physical touch.. then perhaps popping out from nowhere with her fav food and giving her a tight hug and a deep kiss to chase the stress away will be more efficient than the rest. so on and so forth..

my primary love language is gifts. and i love receiving surprises thru gifts aka visual stuffs, things that can be kept or used. and amazingly, this is supposedly the easiest to achieve. just buy gifts for no reason can already. its so simple. sending flowers.. normal dinner with stalk of roses.. buying my fav things..etc, all these are... much simpler then others.

yet, it seems that i have yet to find one that is able to achieve it. thats why i say, its really better if i am born a man, so i will not be the female waiting for things to happen, i will be the man that make things happen.

why am i a female!!!! =/

if i am a man, my gf is gonna be one of the luckiest person with romance.. thoughtfulness.. a promising career.. what else can she want more?

unfortunately.. i'm a female. and yes.. everything changes.

i cannot be possibly surprising my man everyday, he will sooner or later take me for granted.

i cannot be possibly so nice to my man everyday, coz sooner or later he will take me for granted.

i cannot be possibly buying so much things for my man.. coz as a female... we already lose out in a r/s. by being in that r/s, you lose yr heart, yr mind, yr body.. to him. and now money?

yes, call me old fashion, but female and male brains work differently.

male do not appreciate surprises as much as a female, instead they will feel bad that the female is doing so much for him, egoistic, awkwardness. whatever it is..

i wanna be a man i wanna be a man i wanna be a man... in my next life.

for now.. i'll just suck my thumb and keep quiet.

romance and love doesnt rhythm in my life.. apparently.

becoz.. its so god damn difficult to create a surprise for me.

lol.