i am tired.. tired of everything.. tired of my life, tired of exams, tired of being so stubborn, tired.... simply tired out... i think i am under depression? is it true that if a person always feels like crying in the night = depression? I think i am? oh well.. can i just end my life? I am sick of living in this world. in this cruel world. I feel like crying, but i have not cried for a long time. All the negative emotions are stuck in my heart, unable to let it out. It feels like millions and billions of needles poking it, trying to tear it apart. I can tell noone what is going on in my brain in my heart. it hurts that i can tell noone and still pretend nothing is wrong.... Still being smiley and happy to everyone..

Someone please hire a private assassin to kill me? I am totally sick of living.

My template for my blog simply suits me.. i am leading a broken life.. consist of only black and white..

阿桑 - 一直很安静 Ah Sang - Yi Zhi Hen An Jing

空荡的街景 想找个人放感情
做这种决定 是寂寞与我为邻
我们的爱情 像你路过的风景
一直在进行 脚步却从来不会为我而停
给你的爱一直很安静 来交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影 我却始终不能有姓名
你说爱像云 要自在飘浮才美丽
我终于相信 分手的理由有时候很动听
给你的爱一直很安静 来交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影 我却始终不能有姓名
给你的爱一直很安静 我从一开始就下定决心
以为自己要的是曾经 却发现爱一定要有回音
给你的爱一直很安静 想交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影 我却始终不能有姓名
给你的爱一直很安静 除了泪在我的脸上任性
原来缘份是用来说明 你突然不爱我这件事情

I believe everyone out there, has sacrifice something for a person before. You would want to feel appreciated, you would hope they know and understand.. and most importantly, you hope your sacrifice would be worthwhile.... Hey.. everyone, share with me.. what have you done most for a person?

Me?? For a period of time, i stop clubbing for someone. I stop contacting guy friends as he was in camp as I do not want him to feel insecure.
Another.. i spend most of my fri and sat at a lan shop for almost 2 years.. even tho i knew nothing about games.. just for him..
There's more.. lazy to say. too much to write..

But alas, i am always taken for granted. All the scarifices was redundant. That is one of the main reason. why i am staying single. For.. Humans being humans, will never learn to appreciate what is around them till they lost it. Always remember... a "thank you" or "sorry" doesnt need too much strength to say it. Learn to treasure things around you.. for you never know when you are losing it..
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Have been studying since 5pm till now. Brain gonna explode with information soon. =/

Not much to blog today.. cause i did nothing but.. studying studying and more studying.. zzz..

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"I wish and i hope.. you understand why i did it.."

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... In high spirits today!!! Definitely gonna pass today's paper with at least a credit!!! muahahaha.. But i still needa stay focus!! Monday will be another paper!! Hope i can do well for that paper too!!!! I still need those who has mentally "loan" me their IQs!! (LOL) and those who are praying for me.. THANKSS i still need them. =X

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went for an interview earlier.. at one of a high end boutique located in city hall. Was quite disgusted with the way they manage the company. Sterotyping smokers, expect the employees to build relationship with the customers and give high quality service yet the pay?.. well.. if i am not wrong, they are gonna pay the market rate of retail outlet - $5/hr. Was totally not interested in working for them. zzzz..

Hmm.. i sound too confident about myself? well.. i have been in sales line since 16.. Have been in touch with different kinda of customers.. Knows how to handle them quite well.. Customers being customers will always think they are the kings and queens. Well.. in the end, i went to marina sq to look for my friend and tell him about the interview (he was the one who recommended me this job). Haha. in the end, i filled up the application for his retail store and awaiting for the interview now.. =D

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"Zhu Tou!! Zhu Ba Jie!!! LOL.. PIGGY!!!.. YES!! YOU!! Its YOU!!"

I AM S.T.R.E.S.S... TOMORROW is the killer subject exam.... and i cant seems to focus... Monday another paper.. that module is "LAGI JIA LAT AH!!!!!".. cause i didnt study for that module at all.. MY GOD.... "GOD PLS BLESS ME... I AM SORRY FOR NOT STUDYING..." AMEN... HELP HELP HELP HELP.. I NEED IQ of 180!! WHO CAN LEND ME HIS/HER IQ FOR THIS WEEK?! JUST A FEW DAYS WILL DO!!!! ~__________________~""""" Pray hard that i wun fail. goodness...... =/
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Thanks austin for constantly trying to cheer me up while i'm "stressing" through SMSs', he has been constantly showering care and concern throughout these days. I am so touched!!! He is such a nice guy!!! Thank you!!! Really appreciated everything!!!

Thanks gunn for constantly "forcing" me to study and reminding me i am outta time.... muahaha.. tho at times can feel that he is gonna give up trying already. =X Appreciated everything! Even tho i dont say but i blog it down!!!

And.. Thanks to everyone who has prayed for me.... I need more prayers. =X

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WHAT THE HELL AM I BLOGGING HERE!!! I SHOULD BE HUGGING THE BUDDHA LEG NOW!!!... =/

"Gone... Like the wind....."

I hate to quarrel with anyone. it has been ages since i last quarrel with anyone.. (except my last relationship)
he made me damn pissed off.
He says that i ka his lan jiao wei.
All i did was complain to his friend cause he freaking dua me for 2 times already and he is not the least apologetic. http://bloodofabitch.blogspot.com/2005/10/anger.html
Today is the 2nd time.
He asked me to study together.
In the end, he didnt even bother to send an sms to tell that he is not coming.
I reach school only to realise that noone was there(except james, one of his fren).
Called him and he says he is at home and he will only reach by 630pm to fetch me to WCP and study. (WTF? I wasnt informed of this arrangement? i Stay in the north!)
What does he take me for????? I am his friend. He ask me to come down and study together. should he be a little more responsible towards me? at least tell me the plans?
I am freaking angry but i know telling him off doesnt help for he is forever thinking he is correct. he is never wrong. MCPs.
I complain to his friend gregory. Greg forward all the sms to him.
and he sms me back
"if you unhappy, tell me. dont ka my lan jiao wei behind my back."
WTF?! LAN JIAO WEI? HELLO WHAT IS LAN JIAO WEI? LJW = things that are not true about you and doing it on purpose to badmouth you. DID I OR DID I NOT?! did i say in the msg that you are a bastard, you sux, etc? its all about what you did and how i feel about it? is that lan jiao wei? those are things that you did. those are the actions you did towards me. You dont give a damn fuck care if i'm there or not then why in the first place ask me to go and only to get "kite" from you?? When ever i am late i am at least responsible enough to msg you right? You have totally killed my opinion towards you.
FUCK YOU VERY MUCH I HAD ENOUGH!
Dont ever ask me to study together anymore.

Being too angry makes me wanna cry. I hate to quarrel with anyone. Moody....... Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

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Had a thought today..
I wish to die. I wish to be killed in an accident, i wish to disappear from this world... I was wondering.. who will cry for me, who will regret doing things that they shouldnt have done to me, who will miss me...
or..
i wish i could met an accident.. that results in a memory loss.. to forget everyone in my life.. forget my past.. forget my hurt.. forget my love.. forget my heart.. forget everything.. start anew with life.. with new friends.. cause i am sick of my life....

This thought is not link to the quarrel. do not misunderstood. its just a sudden emotions rushing into my head. before the quarrel happen.

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Having inner most thoughts once again... *sigh* Brain and heart please stop thinking so much.. you are driving me crazy, you are killing me.. you are driving me to a verge of mental breakdown.. i am trying very hard to hide....

I really wonder which is the real me now. the cheerful girl that i portray to everyone, or the emotional and depressed blogger? So which is me? I'm confused too.

Am i complaining too much?.... oh well.... i just simply hate myself for being so........ confused, fickle and weak.

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"i wish... i could.. have........................................"

Sigh.... i'm totally depressed and demoralised after today's paper.. 50% chance of failing the paper.. JIA LAT AH!!!!... Fail = retake = $$$!!!! *cries* I spent 4nights.. trying to learn and get things right.. in the end.. today's exam paper question format is so different from all the past year papers. DAMN!!!! .. haiz haiz haiz...................................... Cant seems to get my mood back on my friday's paper after today... =(
But.. i really wanna thanks gunn, austin, fred and jacob for trying to cheer me up today.. Thanks for all the care and concern you guys have given me.. really appreciated it..
Fred and jacob met me at bishan earlier.. trying to cheer me up and keep me company.. had dinner and ktv later on with iris and kurt..(and some retail therapy.. but it didnt help much either..) Tho i was totally.. "not in the mood", i tried my best to.. feel the fun and relax myself.. Ah... this is the first time.. i feel so "fucked up" after an exam. hopefully i will feel better tomorrow..
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" i really wish i could see ya today...."

Overflooded with memories once again.. Just got to know my brother has download the song from 新仙剑奇侠传.. This is a very very very wonderful taiwan series with a very sad ending.. Recommended to all who love watching series. This is series is definitely worth your time. For more information about this series

http://asianfanatics.net/forum/index.php?showtopic=75450

P.S: if you cant read the chinese wordings, please go to View >> encoding>> choose unicode(UTF-8)

六月的雨

一场雨把我困在这里 你冷漠的表情会让我伤心
六月的雨就是无情的你 伴随着点点滴滴痛击我心里
oh~我不相信你不是故意的 却为何把我丢弃在风雨里
oh~我不忍心也不想背叛你 惟有默默等你回心转意
我没有放弃也不会离你而去 哪怕要分开我依然等你
我全心全意等你的消息 终会有一天你会相信我 我爱你
music

(一场雨想念你在我的心中都不可比拟你走后什么都已经消失在风雨里)

杀破狼 by JS

沉睡了千年的身体 从腐枝枯叶里苏醒 是夜莺凄凉的叹息 解开咒语
遗忘的剑被谁封印 追随着箫声和马蹄 找到你
最光荣的牺牲 是英雄的宿命 挥剑的瞬间心却在哭泣
**生是为了证明 爱存在的痕迹 火燃烧后更伟大的生命
杀是为了歌颂 破灭前的壮丽 夜是狼深邃眼睛 孤独等待黎明**
看不见未来和过去 分不清生死的差异 不带走喜悦或遗憾 离开这里
破晓和月牙在交替 我穿越过几个世纪 只为你
当花瓣在飘零 这悲凉的风景 长袖挥不去一生刀光剑影
**Repeat**
我是否已经注定 这流离的宿命 我残破的羽翼 直到你 是你让我找回自己
**Repeat**

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This was the first and the last series that i watch with "him" before he left me.. We love this show alot.. This reminded me of him as.. the last few days of our relationship, we were "wacking" this show from noon till late....
Dont worry everyone, i'm fine. Its just memories only. I have already gotten over him after so many months. Its just that this show reminded me of him thats all. =P
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its 330am now... another... 10hrs.. to my first paper.. everyone!!!
Please pray hard for me!!!.. -.-"

"I am falling deeper.. into the hole i have dug.. and i can no longer pull myself out of it.."

hmm... Sidetrack on what i'm gonna write today.. Everyone who is reading~ Please leave a comment if you have any remark on my blog! at least i know you are reading yeah! =X cause i am totally bored with nothing to do. =P
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Was quite angry with a friend today. Well.. We were suppose to meet up together at panjang then head down to WCP. But i went out for lunch with another friend at batok first before going WCP. So i SMS him at around 3+ that i'm going for lunch and will go myself after that. His first response was
- His SMS "Then WCP got photostat machine? then how we going to zap?" (zap the notes that we have wrote previously. he wrote a few chapters while i wrote others, we were gonna exchange what we have written. )
-My SMS "i go batok photocopy for you my part"
- His SMS "KK"

After lunch, i took a cab down to WCP around 450pm. I have the impression that they will be there cause initially we were to meet at about 3+.. furthermore, there's no SMS from him saying about the meeting time. When i reach there, he and his friends wasnt there. I got quite pissed and i called him. He's still home! and he tells me on the phone, "how i know you will reach at 5+ la. Anyway my friends will be there soon. Wait loh." there's no sign of being apologetic.. Nevermind.. Thankfully his friends arrive about 20mins later. him? he only arrived at 7pm. Previously on our sms it is understandable that i will photocopy for him and he will photocopy himself right? WAH! HE DIDNT PHOTOCOPY FOR ME HIS PART AND HE WANTED ME TO PHOTOCOPY MYSELF ON HIS PART! WTF! So the previous sms.. he only thought of himself and himself alone? what about my part? and he says its my own fault that i reach early. So now its my fault? My god. This is so ungentleman. If he does not want me go down, just say, dont have to be like that right? Grrr... anger...... nevermind.. me REN..

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On a happier note, i finally got to shop awhile earlier at batok!!! muahahaha.. I miss shopping so much.. i'm a shopperholic, clubberholic, smokerholic and crazyholic!!!

Another... 3 more days to my exams. Feeling the stress building up.. shit shit.. Exams suxs badly. =/ I miss working in DBS AH!!!..
Everyone should be having fun.. partying their nights away.. and i.. stuck at WCP.. writing pages after pages of notes.. preparing for my exams. AHhh... SOON... let me pass through these 2 weeks of "No clubbing".. these 2 weeks of "torture".. I WILL BE BACK PARTYING! Wait for me people!!!.. Life is boring.. when you are gonna have exams soon. There's no party, no fun.. except.. revisions after revisions...
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Receive an email from gee my poly classmate with her newborn baby pictures in there.



Ahh!! i am so happy for her!!!.. Having a lovely family with a lovely child! Hmm.. currently having my exams soon.. have not visited her yet.. will go over one of these days after my exams!

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Sometimes.. i really wonder if i am ready to settle down, ready to start another new relationship. Looking at how fortunate things are going around my friends, makes me envious.. yet at the same time.. i question myself "am i ready for a commitment?"
i do not know what i want, i do not understand what i need. Friends who just got to know me, says i am too stubborn, too wild. Friends who know me too well, says i am too nice. Yeah.. i know, i am too stubborn to listen to anyone. I just wanna do things my way, and when i fall, i only blame myself. That's me. That's why i am always getting hurt.. cause i am too stubborn to let go... till he let go.
"learn how to love yourself before loving anyone else.." thats what they frequently tells me.. "stop being so nice to your guy.. learn to play hard to get.."
I am trying!!.. but trying is not good enough!! cause that is me!! i dont expect anything in return!! i just need them to sense my presence to appreciate me thats all i ask for!!.. ok.. i guess thats not enough. =/
Are all humans like that?.. they never know what is good to them till they lost it?.. Must human learn the hard way?.. even so.. isnt it all too late?..
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"I choose to live my life this way.. and i blame noone.."

hmm.. not much "happening" stuff for me to blog today. =/ As usual.. spend my afternoon with david trying to finish up our revision notes.. that freaking module.. information overloaded in my brain!!!..
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I simply find life is a joke.. or is god playing a joke on us? why do we always make decision that we will regret later and do stuffs that we know its gonna hurt ourselves or the other party? Is that the only way we could learn and mature? I never could find a reason for it.. We are said to be the smartest being on earth, but why do we always end up doing stupid/foolish things?
Hmm.. speculating what have i done to write this? erm.. its just my thoughts. Dont think too deeply. it doesnt mean anything. haha.

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A Joke to Share with You guys! =D

Letter of divorce

Dear Husband:
I'm writing you this letter to tell you that I'm leavingyou for good. I've been a good woman to you forseven years and I have nothing to show for it.These last two weeks have been hell. Your bosscalled to tell me that you had quit your job todayand that was the last straw. Last week, you camehome and didn't notice that I had gotten my hairand nails done, cooked your favorite meal and evenwore a brand new negligee. You came home andate in two minutes, and went straight to sleep afterwatching the game. You don't tell me you love meanymore, you don't touch me or anything. Eitheryou're cheating or you don't love me anymore,Whatever the case is, I'm gone.

P.S. If you're trying to find me, don't. YourBROTHER and I are moving away to West Virginia together! Have a great life!

Your EX-Wife

Dear Ex-Wife
Nothing has made my day more than receivingyour letter. It's true that you and I have beenmarried for seven years, although a good woman isa far cry from what you've been. I watch sportsso much to try to drown out your constantnagging. Too bad that doesn't work. I did noticewhen you cut off all of your hair last week,the first thing that came to mind was "You lookjust like a man!" My mother raised me to not sayanything if you can't say anything nice. Whenyou cooked my favorite meal, you must havegotten me confused with MY BROTHER,because I stopped eating pork seven years ago. Iwent to sleep on you when you had on that newnegligee because the price tag was still on it. Iprayed that it was a coincidence that my brotherhad?just borrowed fifty dollars from me thatmorning and your negligee was $49.99. After all ofthis, I still loved you and felt that we could work itout. So when I discovered that I had hit the lotto forten million dollars, I quit my job and bought us twotickets to?Jamaica. But when I got home you weregone. Everything happens for a reason I guess. Ihope you have the filling life you always wanted.My lawyer said with your letter that you wrote, youwon't get a dime from me. So take care.

P.S I don't know if I ever told you this but Carl, mybrother was born Carla. I hope that's not a problem.

Signed Rich As Hell and Free!

Memories of my days in poly came floating back into
my mind earlier when i went over for lunch with gunn.. Times really flies.. i have since graduated from NYP for almost 2 years. Those days over there were one of my happiest moments with my classmates. 2 have gotten married with kids. While the rest are doing their own stuffs... yeah.. we have drifted apart.. Its sad that nothing goes on forever.. but the memories will always stay in my mind and heart.
During the 3 years.. I was the organizer of the class.. always collecting money for their birthday presents... Each of us have a makeover session as their 18th birthday present.. I am always thinking of ways and means to sabo them during their birthday.. Its as if it just happen yesterday! I threw Grace shoes into the pond... Bought flour to sabo shirley.. Bought gold dust to sabo almost everyone of them.. Threw the whole cake onto grace face.. Well.. they got they revenge back on my 18th birthday! LOL~
I am always making funny jokes, sounds and movement to make them laugh.. We shared secrets and gossips together..
Time flies.. i'm already gonna be 22 this year.. I miss all of them lots!!!
Geri, rachel, shirley, lorraine, steph, stephanie, angeline, grace, celine, gee, lisi, chenling, Kwangheng, James, Yongwen, William if you are reading my blog.. I wish all of you the best in everything! You guys were the best!!!



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Met up with my babe prissy and the rest of the gang earlier. WoooooooooooHooooooooo.. SHE'S HOT! My god, she went to extend her hair.. Looking dead gorgeous! She organised a surprise birthday party for John and i was late for 1hr. =X
Intended to chill out at forbidden city, but ended up in momo as FC is close for private function.
Miss clubbing with all of them so much.. but.. all of them has retired from the clubbing scene.. =/
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Back to my books.. I'm feeling so stressed up. =(

ok. i'm feeling unlucky today...
1) Freaking pissed. I cant tag back!!.. neither can i tag at other tagbox! wtf is wrong with me IE?! keep popping up this msg "cookies deactivited?" with "?" behind!!! I can tag at wayne's and jerry's blog! but not mine! GRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr -.-"""
Si jerry, disturb me at my tagbox. Swee. Wait till i repair it. (already email shoutboxes about it.)

2) Couldnt find my wallet around my house for almost 1hr. I thought i have lost it and i actually went to cancel my debit card and atm card. stupid me. Finally found it among my stack of notes. -.-" i am the ultimate blur sotong in the world.

3) I am feeling damn freaking stressed up. Gonna cry out soon. I dont understand what i am studying. fook fook fook. I am gonna die @ my exams. >.< ________________________________

On a happier note... I found my diary!!! Loaded alot of devilish and evil inner most thoughts into it. Screaming, Shouting, Crying.. Thinking as i wrote..
Time flies..
a lot of emotions rushed into my mind and my heart..
Realised that i have grown, matured..
The childish and naive me in the past..
ok. My Depression mode is starting again. Shall end here.. Needa let go of emotions and back to my books!!!!

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梁咏琪 - 顺时针

淋过雨的空气 疲倦了的伤心
静静收起的伞底 泪的痕迹渐渐退去
我一个人鼓起勇气 跟着时钟一格一格的前进
推开窗等待阳光 等待着清醒

* 我记忆里的童话 已经慢慢的溶化 爱不是这样
而你偷走我的时间 曾说过的誓言 你还在乎吗
我不想孤单的坐在回忆里逞强 时间回不到最开始的地方
只想这样吹着风 慢慢顺时针遗忘

我一个人应该可以 想起爱过之前原来的自己
或许那样的天真我已经回不去

也许我懂得寂寞比相爱容易
Repeat *

已经慢慢的溶化 爱不是这样
而你偷走我的时间 曾说过的誓言 你还在乎吗
我不想孤单的坐在回忆里逞强 时间回不到最开始的地方
只想这样吹着风 慢慢顺时针遗忘

等到明天继续放晴 几乎忘记下过了雨
爱在心底留的签名 总会慢慢退去

Wanted to study since 2pm.. but.. my butt simply do not wanna move away from my computer seat. Slack and surf net till 8pm till i finally manage to get my body up and move to my study table. less than 30mins later...... wayne called.. "yo! ice cream outing! see ya 15mins later" my so called determination fail again. >.< http://food.asia1.com.sg/desserts/des_20050908_002.shtml

Brianca, jasmine, jerry, shander, wayne and i headed to this new found cafe recommended by brianca. Atmosphere is soothing, with pink tables and white sofas/chairs. the ice cream variety is very special. I tried their durian, strawberry, Horlick, Nutella, jackfruit flavors. Not bad i would say. Their waffles are worthy for their price ($5 with 2 scoops of ice creams) but comparing it with gelare? The latter won! but.. pricing wise of course gelare is more expensive.
In the end.. i only manage to start my revision at 11+ after i came home..
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Sweetie babe iris called me earlier. Tio "cho" by her.. "ask me jio you go devils, msg you you never reply?!" okok.. sorry sorry.. i was blading ma.. lol.. dun angry kk. hehe.. she wanted to ask me out.. but i was already on the way to the ice cream cafe.. Will definitely go out with you soon my dearest! *muack* hehe.. Part of her reason for calling me up.. was because she wanted to find out where i bought my brown jacket. Hope she will find it in the store! (cause i bought it like 6mths ago)


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I'm quite touched surprised that a friend of mine actually msg me.. hows my studies going on.. is he or is he not... "Brain" you are thinking too much again. He is just being nice to you back as this is what you did when he was having his exams too. =D
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I realise... I LOST MY DIARY!!!! Yes, i do have a diary since i was 15. hmm.. but i think i have less than 10posts inside. haha.. it contains my darkest secrets and my deepest emotion thoughts.. and it is lost now... i wonder where it is hiding.. "come out come out.. wherever you are.."

Dear Diary,

Where are you? I miss you.. I need You.. Sorry i misplace you.. Please appear again...

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Back to my books now... sigh.. Bored.. depress.. reluctant.. exams sux.

Stop the Rain did not yesterday.. Gloomy day.. Camp at friend's home with another waiting for the rain to stop from 12 to 5pm! Cause we were intending to go ECP and blade!.. Plans were ruin because of unforseen circumstances. Fiaking rain. grrr..
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Attended a birthday party in the evening with them. ok! i am not in this picture! cause.. i am the camera girl. lolz. (the camera belongs to me ma.. )

The lights went off at 10pm.. and we started playing with candles..

Justin as usual, started coming up with "ideas" on how to sabo the birthday girl.. (cause his birthday is the first few among the group) After bd girl parents left.. the "real" party started. They started throwing cakes and noodles.. lolz

Thankfully nothing happen to me. cause i was wearing justin's jacket, and carrying the camera taking pictures. haha. Well, its not over yet, cause Justin came up with another idea. Asking the birthday girl to put a ciggy in her mouth and take a picture.. ok, cannot post that pic up cause i might get killed for it. haha.

Left at about 12am.. went back home and took a picture on my own. hehe.. my mirror image(again!). oh ya, thats my cam which has taken alot of memories down! =D

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I... have... not... touch... my... revision... for... the... whole... weekend... I AM DEAD NOW!!
gonna go down and revise soon!!!
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How to talk like Yoda (extracted from http://forum.reddotcreation.com )

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in four easy steps
Talking like Jedi Master Yoda is a fun and easy way to make a joke amongst your fellow Star Wars fans. His unique style of reversing the words in a sentence are easily recognized by fans around the world.

Here's How:
1. Take the first two or three words of a sentence, and just add them to the end. For example: 'You will find what you are looking for' turns into 'Find what you are looking for, you will.'

2. Rearranging the negative in a sentences works very well. For example: 'I will not help you' turns into 'I will help you not.' Avoiding contractions will help in this -- 'I can't go there' turns into 'Go there, I can not.'

3. Adding a 'hmmmm...' at the end of an altered question. For example, 'Do you know what I am talking about?' turns into 'Know what I am talking about, do you? Hmmm...?'

4. Adding a 'yes' to an altered statement. For example: 'You are here for my help' turns into 'Here for my help, you are... yes...'

Super Duper poor student now.. and i am still shopping!!! Ahhhh.. Just bought 3 items from ELF.. now .. looking at gojane and UO.. My goodness.. hopefully nothing caught my eye.. if not.... I think i needa go beg for $$$ liao!!.. Any kind souls other there willing to pay for my shopping? LOL!!! I'll be eternally grateful to you! =D
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Oh hell yeah, i got drunk.. nono is super high yesterday at devils again. all thanks to the 3 cups of beer that i had with a friend of mine. Before that i already had a few cups of martel with jerry, mandy and fred. =/Mixing beer + martel = high high and more high!
For the first time in my clubbing life, i club for 1hr and went back to KTV( friend's bd).. torturing indeed.. to sing after clubbing.. The feeling was very.. uncomfortable and super fustration!! Imagine a moment ago you were listening to fast music, and the next moment you were singing slow, sad chinese love songs.. >.<
Thankfully i had a friend who took care of me. Muahaha! Hey, you know who you are. Thanks alot. =P
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My goodness... 25th is round the corner.. my exams are in a week time!!! Friends who are reading my blog.. do me a good favour.. pray hard for me ya? lol!!! i think i'm a goner.. Couldnt seems to study for it.. HELP!!!..

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Initial D OST – Gloves to Ali

I float like a butterfly, sting like a bee
Keys to the ignition are like gloves to Ali
2 & fro, water in the sea, the sunrise (twilight)
Is my peace
~repeat
I ride the distance, nature in me Nirvana coming through, with my delivery
2 & fro, mountains and sea, the twilight sets me free
~repeat

Yeah Yeah! My First Post for this blog. Finally its up thanks to jerry, aB and adeline who has guided me on where to get the information and stuffs! =D

My Skin is choosen by aB~!! Thanks sweetie!!!

lalalala~ so happy!!! hehehe..

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