seriously, i dun understand.

why would a person (guy/girl) date 2 girls/ 2 guys who are best of friends one after another?

i mean.

maybe its just me.

i find it damn weird.

i will never date my ex bf's good fren.

and i dun think i would want any of my friends to date my ex bf.

is that selfish?

i dunno.

thats out of my boundaries.

i think thats the only thing in r/s that i can never take it.

because personally..

i think its wrong.

=.=

its just so weird!!!

i mean, being good friends back with yr ex is a different issue.

but .. dating the next person who is yr ex bf's good fren...

just make me feel as tho.. the best buddies are exchanging gfs.

this one finish liao next one take over.

=.=~

thats so weird!!!

i can never comprehend why girls will do it.

or why guys will do it too..

i guess..

i'm NOT GENEROUS enough.. in r/s to accept that.

as much as i'm open.

as much as i'm easy going..

thats one thing i cannot never never accept..

i feel thats disgusting.

too strong a word.

but thats how i really feel..

disgusted.

i think there's something wrong with the moral values..

imagine..

i'm fucking my ex bf's buddy. they are discussing it behind me..

or ..

my ex bf is fucking my best friend..

o.O!!!!!

HOW TO COMPREHEND?!

I CANNOT!!!

=X

i is very imaginative one. LOL~

this is ONE issue i never can to understand!!!!!!!

--

on a side note..

my car batt died on me on christmas day.

i hope my batt isnt spoiled.

i hope jump starting it will work..

i only hope for the best (prepare for the worse) tomorrow...

its either i lock my blog for a long period, or i am force to change it to something where i can lock my post up. which one should i choose?

christmas and new year is coming.

and i dread those days.

because its the one and only period.. (+ CNY) where.. I HAVE NO IDEA AND PLANS ON WHAT TO DO!

yeah. amazing right..

carol, the very happening person. .. will run out of idea of what to do and where to go..

i dread those days because.. quite a few of my christmas or new year was filled with tears and aches.

i had.. like 2 breakups during that period..

and 1 major heartache during that period..

and i'm frighten of it.

+ i cannot remember when did i last felt happy celebrating christmas..

never had a great celebration before except that one that happen a few years ago..

where ade, ah si and koz.. 4 of us went crazy and cabbed down orchard just to feel the celebration and spraying at everyone on sight with the spray cans that ruin their shirt for the night.

where should i gooooooooo.. its already 23 and i yet to have any plans! its irritating me.. sigh.

my new hair band!!!



HAHAHA.. he just cant stop making me laugh. =X






we were bored.. while waiting for ah dar to arrive... =X



i love my camera, i hate iphone cam. lol.

you never fail to make me laugh every moment, every time.

you dun mind making a fool of yourself just to make people around u laugh.













i finally found someone, as crazy as i am. HAHAHAHAHA.





and for the first time in my 4years of blogging.. i'm declaring this on my blog.

I Heart u Mr Yeo! =DDDD


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df night. i love my outfit that day. its a new dress! =DD





it was vivien's birthday celebration @ df.





happy birthday vivien!

Easily irritated... and i snap any moment any time.

i'm feeling pek chek now.

i dunno why.

=.=..

i'm irritated with everything!!!

i need a new bag. its not right to always carry my wallet, hp and car key on hand. i will lose it sooner or later.

kate spade? saw a few red bags there yesterday when i was at raffles city.. maybe.. i should just go and get one for myself for christmas.

have been pampering others but not myself for the longest time.

if next week i can click a deal of total $2k comm i'll get a kate spade for myself. =)

(Since LV is outta reach... i wun spend 1.3k on a bag alone.. ridiculous.)

or perhaps.. i should ebay and ask reub to get it for me than i TT him...

argh.

and i'm outta M1 as of today.

Singtel? Starhub? only singtel's having pre-order for the new bb bold 9700.

another sum of $ gonna fly. *sigh*

i am fucking irritated with the fact that i'm broke.

i fucking need more $. =.=

irritated with everything that is happening.

wat the fuck is going wrong with me! PUI!

i sux. =.=~

i dun wanna grow up can i?!

=(

mom just got discharged today.

its her last op this time on her knees.

finally is over! left only recovery..

she was admitted to Mount Alvernia ytd.

that was where i was born too.

and it so happen mom was on the floor where the newborn babies are.



missy was bathing one of the new born baby.. and i happen to pass by..

the baby was red.. and looks blue black.

and its so small!

no my motherly instincts wasnt out.

i just feel that those little thing are amazing..

and that they grow in our body..

and one of my client's wife gonna give birth this christmas..

the MIL who is my client too tells me that when woman gives birth to boys.. they tend to be uglier than giving birth to baby girl.

the nose is bigger and the face is bigger too. o.O..

pregnancy.. babies.. o.O

is gonna be the next in topic among my friends... (since they are all getting married one by one!)

i better get more information from my clients so i can join in the fun... verbally.

verbally is enough for now. *BIG SMILE*~

--
Random:

this was spotted at liang court!!! damn COOL RIGHT!!!

it was the grand opening for shanghai dollies tonight..

and i headed down with Mr. Yeo coz he had the invitation to it..

the moment we reached, we hear complains..

complains abt how the waitress over there actually chased us away from the table becoz there's another group of ppl who took up the birthday package and wanna open a Da pao (aka big cannon)

next..

we saw a so called newpaper photographer.. who got so wasted... and started jio-ing everyone to drink and act friendly.. (i dunno him he dunno me)
he's one of the guy fren.. and he pisses everyone on the table off becoz he wassuper irritating after getting drunk. jio-ed a guy drink, tell him bo ta bo Lam Pa.. after which.. he drank one sip and left the glass on the table..
the other guy got so pissed off (becoz he was high too) and started aiming that guy..
eventually... the guy got drunk and toh on the sofa..
but.... the other guy.. mai pang sua. still wnana find trouble.. keep grumbling abt that bo ta bo lam pa thingy... till we left at 1030.. he was still harping on it!!! amazing.. =.=~

next.. a lady fren in our group.. lost her phone at the sofa.. she started screaming and crying and screaming and crying. we searched high and low for her.. but couldnt find it.. she got pissed off.. and started screaming and squating on the floorr. sigh.. eventually she went out of the club..
and started screaming at a poor guy whom i think its her friend.. all the screaming.. somehow.. pissed some of the guys off.. i think.. she drank quite alot and couldnt control her emotions..

it wasnt a very good nite i would say.

i saw alot of outburst of emotions..

it was hot and stuffy inside.. and + all the emotional issues.. we left way early. reach at 9, went back at 1030. lol.

what a grand opening.

its so grand that i have no words to describe.

even fred, the usual cool guy my best friend.. nearly lose his cool. lol.

alcohol + no aircon + stuffy + squeezy + emo outburst = anger/pek chek.

lol!

its an eye opener for me.. for i have never seen such emotional outburst among ppl i know in clubs before..

yeah.. u must be surprise..

i have never seen a fight (cause .. one punch and bouncer come liao)

i only saw a glass flew by..

and..

ppl i club with dun create trouble. (thankfully)

+.. i dun create trouble too..

i'm extremely happy whenever i drink.

happy/polite/crazy.

i dun emo. even when i am extremely sad, alcohol makes me happy.

its just the opposite for alot.

alcohol is like estacy for me. LOL!

with a side effect that i dunno when i am a good drinker or when i am a bad drinker.

yes.. sometimes i can drink alot mix alot and dun get drunk

and sometimes... i drink 3-4glasses.. i blackout liao.

i dunno whats my limit since my limit differs everyday. lol~

oh well..

i guess shanghai dollies is not gonna be the next in thing for them.

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Photos:

Advance birthday celebration for jane over at Himawari!



both of them are getting married!! next year!!



us.. after 3years. =P



this was my makeup before i head out.. i had to remove it becoz it was too drama!!



Shanghai dollies

alson and moi~



Mr. Yeo and me.. aww. this pic is cute! hahaha. he never fails to make me laugh!!! =DD

been jogging 2 days straight at ECP!

and thanks to reuben for sharing..

quit smoking has been made easier.

1) Make the decision to STOP.

2) rejoice on that decision u made.

(the key to giving up is your frame of mind about smoking!)

along with that attitude

"well well, isnt it marvelous to be a non smoker"

and always in your mind,

"i'm never gonna smoke again, isnt it marvelous"

(taken by Allen Carr's video)

Allen Carr (2 September 1934 – 29 November 2006) was an author of books about quitting smoking and other psychological dependencies including alcohol addiction. He quit smoking after 33 years as a hundred- a- day chain smoker.

(info from wiki)

Now i feel really excited about this!

changing back to a non smoker is so much more cool than staying as a smoker! =D

anyone who wishes to have the book or the video can PM me at the side, if you have always wanted to quit and was unable to do so all this while.

=)

Thou i just started on this path of quit smoking...

according to Allen Carr.. its 3 weeks. and after 3 weeks i will realise that i dun need to smoke at all..

and all i have to do is to feel excited and stay positive. =DDDD

its my 3rd day~ and i'm enjoying it. =)

and i didnt quit.

I STOP SMOKING!!

its different!!! =DDDD

Terrible nightmare i had.

woke up in cold sweat at 8am.

and before i woke up, i was struggling alot asking myself if its real.

then i realise that its all a dream.

dreamt that i went to taiwan alone instead. and as i went thru the trip, each and every stop that i made was all for .. and i started crying real badly everyday.

and i also dreamt the reason of me being alone..

it was scary!

it was so real!

=(

to make myself feel better, i went for a shopping trip with brianca for jane's pressy.

saw a dress that i really really like costing $60bucks..

was so tempted to buy!

but i resist.. cause i dun usually buy from SG..

aww.. and now i'm missing it. =.=~

grr. should i? o.O

i'm on budget this month wor!

=(

irritating. shouldnt have shopped. =.=!

finally changed my songs.. imeem sux! moved on to mixpod. thou its all eng songs.. at least its full songs. =DD

thank you for always making me laugh,

thank you for always trying to be a joker so as to keep me entertained.

thank you for feeling what i feel when i'm down.

thank you for trying to give me surprises when it somehow always fails.. =X

thank you for letting me do most of the decision making,

thank you for eating what i cannot finish..

thank you for growing fat because of that..

thank you for always trying to squeeze my pimples because u cannot resist the temptation..

thank you for tolerating my abusive nature.. (lol!!!)

thank you for tolerating my random mood swings and my PMS. (PRE,During,Post! i only had 1 week of normalness. LOL.)

thank you.. for being you.

=)



(yeah, another one of my master piece~ lol.)

its long weekend but.. it wasnt a great one. simply because i had to wake up in the morning everyday.

from bringing my mom to see the specialist to helping my dad out at his workplace..

not a day of rest where i could just sleep till i wake up naturally.

oh well.. had to do what i had to do.

fri was rynna's birthday. she celebrated at intercon, dine at ma masion... lol. exactly the same as mine.

they were late.. we were too early..

so.. i took out my cam and start cam whoring again! hee.





birthday girl



all of us.



the girls.



Mr. Yeo and moi.



headed to watch new moon after that! but.. new moon was kinda boring since more of the development of the r/s is on the 3rd book.. so yeah, waiting for the next twilight!

randoms:

my new cap that i bought! my loves!!



with Ly in office. HAA. i can even cam whore in office!



@ df, Mr. Yeo got bored and start to act funny again. lol.



and to share... this is my 88 warm color palette from coastal scents! isnt it lovely!



heeee..