The start of the real thing.
Friday, November 27, 2009
Everybody enjoys the sweetest of the beginning.
Who dun?
the times where you missed someone dearly..
the times where there's so much things to explore together..
the times where you just wanna see that somebody everyday..
the times where everyday is laughter, fun, feeling real happy and fortunate, feeling the most amazing wonderful feeling that u can ever had..
the times where u felt the most fortunate..
the times where everything seems so perfect..
the times where just staring into space with that somebody is good enough..
the times where its just you and that somebody, everything else is secondary..
the times where we term it as the honeymoon period.
the sweetest of the sweetest, the loving of the loving..
but it doesnt last forever.
how unfortunate yeah.
But, honeymoon period is the time where both parties are not themselves.
The start of the real thing begins after that sweet period.
the next phrase.
where.. you show your true self..
where.. compromising and understanding starts to take place..
where.. issues and problems start surfacing..
where.. the love and bonding you initially thought you had is being challenged.
where.. disagreements and unhappiness unfold itself..
where.. things becomes routine..
where.. surprises are no longer that important in that dictionary..
and this next phrase goes on forever and ever..
sometimes.. it leads to a happy ending..
and only one out of so many.. can lead to that happy ending..
in short.. most of the time it just leads to a dead end.
the start of the rollar coaster ride has begin.
and it gets more exciting as days goes...
ahh.. i'm now carol chin again.
nice to meet you.
Who dun?
the times where you missed someone dearly..
the times where there's so much things to explore together..
the times where you just wanna see that somebody everyday..
the times where everyday is laughter, fun, feeling real happy and fortunate, feeling the most amazing wonderful feeling that u can ever had..
the times where u felt the most fortunate..
the times where everything seems so perfect..
the times where just staring into space with that somebody is good enough..
the times where its just you and that somebody, everything else is secondary..
the times where we term it as the honeymoon period.
the sweetest of the sweetest, the loving of the loving..
but it doesnt last forever.
how unfortunate yeah.
But, honeymoon period is the time where both parties are not themselves.
The start of the real thing begins after that sweet period.
the next phrase.
where.. you show your true self..
where.. compromising and understanding starts to take place..
where.. issues and problems start surfacing..
where.. the love and bonding you initially thought you had is being challenged.
where.. disagreements and unhappiness unfold itself..
where.. things becomes routine..
where.. surprises are no longer that important in that dictionary..
and this next phrase goes on forever and ever..
sometimes.. it leads to a happy ending..
and only one out of so many.. can lead to that happy ending..
in short.. most of the time it just leads to a dead end.
the start of the rollar coaster ride has begin.
and it gets more exciting as days goes...
ahh.. i'm now carol chin again.
nice to meet you.
posted by icy at 11/27/2009 02:02:00 AM
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after days of planning..
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
finally i got all the information needed for my trip!!!!!!!
i'm now an expert in finding hotels in tw that is cheap and good..
just to share with everyone.
my hotel in Taichung is gonna be this
http://tw.myblog.yahoo.com/sevilla0923/article?mid=89&next=648&l=f&fid=1
its near Feng Chia Night Market. and only 1000NT!!! cheap!!
and my Hua lien hotel is
http://view-ocean.tel038.com.tw/page-1-1-3.htm
its a beauty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ｉ ｌｏｖｅ ｉｔ ｓｏ ｍｕｃｈ！！！
next.. my yilan hotel
http://www.yage.idv.tw/r01.htm
awwwwwwww, they got couple hot spring!!! and look at the bathtub!! =X
*loves*~ i spend days researching one lor!!!
i'm now an expert in finding cheap and good hotels in tw.
as for taipei, i'm gonna save money and stay with my mom's friend. =D
finally everything's settled.
i'm flying off on the 12, coming back on the 21. =DDD
cant wait cant wait!!
i'm now an expert in finding hotels in tw that is cheap and good..
just to share with everyone.
my hotel in Taichung is gonna be this
http://tw.myblog.yahoo.com/sevilla0923/article?mid=89&next=648&l=f&fid=1
its near Feng Chia Night Market. and only 1000NT!!! cheap!!
and my Hua lien hotel is
http://view-ocean.tel038.com.tw/page-1-1-3.htm
its a beauty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ｉ ｌｏｖｅ ｉｔ ｓｏ ｍｕｃｈ！！！
next.. my yilan hotel
http://www.yage.idv.tw/r01.htm
awwwwwwww, they got couple hot spring!!! and look at the bathtub!! =X
*loves*~ i spend days researching one lor!!!
i'm now an expert in finding cheap and good hotels in tw.
as for taipei, i'm gonna save money and stay with my mom's friend. =D
finally everything's settled.
i'm flying off on the 12, coming back on the 21. =DDD
cant wait cant wait!!
posted by icy at 11/25/2009 10:21:00 PM
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MUAHAHA..
went for brazilian waxing.. FINALLY..
and.
i nearly died of pain.
after 8 years of shaving.
to make it silky smooth, i have to go to hell first. (its not that smooth yet, needa go for a few more times...)
lol~
LY went with me. she also nearly died of pain. LOL~!
and now i understand whats boyfriend's wax.
means guys waxing their balls!!!
damn cool leh!
i ask bff to go. LY suggest me to give bff boyfriend's wax as christmas present. she tried to psycho him too.
he laughs and say we siao.
LOL!
i then ask my boss to go make his balls "good good soot soot loot loot" MUAHAHAHAHAHA. he laugh and say we siao again. LOL!
seems that guys waxing their balls isnt a "hot fav" MUAHAHA.
hmm..
needa go for another few more times before.. i decide whether i should go for brazilian IPL.
not cheap leh! 1600 wor!
or should i do my upper lip first. $480 nia.
hmm..
broke.
damn broke.
sponsors anyone? *wink at bff*
LOL!
and.
i nearly died of pain.
after 8 years of shaving.
to make it silky smooth, i have to go to hell first. (its not that smooth yet, needa go for a few more times...)
lol~
LY went with me. she also nearly died of pain. LOL~!
and now i understand whats boyfriend's wax.
means guys waxing their balls!!!
damn cool leh!
i ask bff to go. LY suggest me to give bff boyfriend's wax as christmas present. she tried to psycho him too.
he laughs and say we siao.
LOL!
i then ask my boss to go make his balls "good good soot soot loot loot" MUAHAHAHAHAHA. he laugh and say we siao again. LOL!
seems that guys waxing their balls isnt a "hot fav" MUAHAHA.
hmm..
needa go for another few more times before.. i decide whether i should go for brazilian IPL.
not cheap leh! 1600 wor!
or should i do my upper lip first. $480 nia.
hmm..
broke.
damn broke.
sponsors anyone? *wink at bff*
LOL!
posted by icy at 11/25/2009 01:56:00 AM
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weekends.
Monday, November 23, 2009
weekends was a little quiet as i had to help daddy at work in the morning.
mom wasnt able to work.. so i had to be there.
i took over sat morning while bro took the sun morning slot.
i still manage to club a little over at Dblo~ miss mambo, thats why went down with bff and his friends where they just finished a wedding dinner.
bah.. as usual.. and only god knows why.. i almost blacked out.
but i manage to survive the blackout period but i was real tired after that.. and again i felt real cold and was shivering non stop.
in the end i went to the car to take a nap...
oh well........................................
i dunno why am i like that..
sometimes, my alcohol level is damn high, will never get drunk..
and sometimes.. just a glass is enough for me to black out. zzz..
pics!
out with Mr. X while waiting for bff's call! we went to see christmas carol! we miscommunication, he was late, and he met me at the wrong cathay. LOL. i was at cine! he had to run back from the cathay. HAA.
Mr. bff and moi. i think i look pretty good here~ =X
did i slim down did i slim down?!
hoooo.....
mom wasnt able to work.. so i had to be there.
i took over sat morning while bro took the sun morning slot.
i still manage to club a little over at Dblo~ miss mambo, thats why went down with bff and his friends where they just finished a wedding dinner.
bah.. as usual.. and only god knows why.. i almost blacked out.
but i manage to survive the blackout period but i was real tired after that.. and again i felt real cold and was shivering non stop.
in the end i went to the car to take a nap...
oh well........................................
i dunno why am i like that..
sometimes, my alcohol level is damn high, will never get drunk..
and sometimes.. just a glass is enough for me to black out. zzz..
pics!
out with Mr. X while waiting for bff's call! we went to see christmas carol! we miscommunication, he was late, and he met me at the wrong cathay. LOL. i was at cine! he had to run back from the cathay. HAA.
Mr. bff and moi. i think i look pretty good here~ =X
did i slim down did i slim down?!
hoooo.....
posted by icy at 11/23/2009 08:52:00 PM
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a mistake that was made again
Friday, November 20, 2009
once again, i made the same mistake i made years ago.
once again, i got myself too attached to some people.
when i was being left out, i feel damn uncomfortable.
my bad, my mistake.
emotions shouldnt in the first place be present when it comes to friends.
my bad, my mistake.
for allowing myself to be dependent on people to such extend.
my bad, my mistake.
that i didnt diversify the group of people that i could hang out with.
my bad, my mistake.
that once again i let my emotions took over me.
my bad, my mistake.
that this happens again.
my bad, my mistake.
i should have learnt from past experience.
my bad, my mistake.
i should just keep myself in tact which i didnt.
my bad, my mistake.
i become so uncool.
my bad, my mistake.
i shouldnt shouldnt have ever gotten myself to so attached to a certain group of people.
time to revert back to a social butterfly.
once again, i got myself too attached to some people.
when i was being left out, i feel damn uncomfortable.
my bad, my mistake.
emotions shouldnt in the first place be present when it comes to friends.
my bad, my mistake.
for allowing myself to be dependent on people to such extend.
my bad, my mistake.
that i didnt diversify the group of people that i could hang out with.
my bad, my mistake.
that once again i let my emotions took over me.
my bad, my mistake.
that this happens again.
my bad, my mistake.
i should have learnt from past experience.
my bad, my mistake.
i should just keep myself in tact which i didnt.
my bad, my mistake.
i become so uncool.
my bad, my mistake.
i shouldnt shouldnt have ever gotten myself to so attached to a certain group of people.
time to revert back to a social butterfly.
posted by icy at 11/20/2009 10:47:00 PM
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yet another conversations abt weddings.
this time round involve brianca and rs.
OI! u all hor! dun everytime like that leh! (stop asking me when is my turn!!!)
LOL.
everyday i'm talking abt weddings with different ppl!!!!
previously is going for wedding dinners after wedding dinners
now i'm facing conversations of diamond cuts, dinner venue, price and wedding gown packages.
LOL..
i am soon to be a wedding guru.
maybe i should .. do part time as wedding planner.
LOL!!
OI! u all hor! dun everytime like that leh! (stop asking me when is my turn!!!)
LOL.
everyday i'm talking abt weddings with different ppl!!!!
previously is going for wedding dinners after wedding dinners
now i'm facing conversations of diamond cuts, dinner venue, price and wedding gown packages.
LOL..
i am soon to be a wedding guru.
maybe i should .. do part time as wedding planner.
LOL!!
posted by icy at 11/20/2009 11:53:00 AM
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emotional pillar
i have always been my own emotional pillar.
each and everytime, shit happens in my life, i'll rant in here.
and forget it when i wake up.
each and everytime, i go thru a heartache, i'll choose to hide from all my friends, and meet up with those i have not met for a long time so erase past memories, and build the new.
each and everytime, i feel emotionally weak, i'll rant in here too.
my emotional pillar, is actually my blog i realise.
not any other friends.
he says its not healthy.
i will in the future topple over because i am my own emotional pillar.
weakness isnt in my dictionary.
showing other people my weak side, is even worst.
thinking back... i wasnt like that last time.
when i go thru heartaches, i'll call up my then best friends.. cry in front of them.. and allow them to see my teary face.. telling them how sad i am, giving them access to my wounded heart.
things changes when that someone left my life out of a sudden 6years ago.
it was the most heart-aching period throughout my life. after that one time.. showing to my then friends.. my weakest side.. where i cried to the sea, screamed at the sea.. and broke down completely. i nearly fainted by the sea because of the sadness. i cried for 4-5hrs non stop. till my eyes was in pain.. but i kept crying and crying.. it went on for mths.
the pain that i went thru, its something i dun wanna go thru it again.
after that, i learn to guard my heart, locked it up and kept it away from everyone else.
i'm an emotional person with tons of romance and love within myself.
i ran.. away from opening up my heart to anyone for a longest time.
am i able to face that fear of pain again?..
or i am actually slowly opening up the coward heart to see the light again?
yes.. honestly. i am afraid of loving a person wholeheartedly.
for..
the pain of that is too much for me to bear.
yet..
i realize.. that i'm slowly.. very slowly..
peeking thru.. into the world.. again.
i'm scared... really.. i am very frighten..
i wonder how i will feel later..
would i go thru what jw always put me thru in the past?..
or
would i be able to pass the day without even feeling anything?
back to the damn cool and confident carol.
(i'm hoping for the 2nd one.)
i think i'll be able to be cool with it. =)
for now.. i aint feeling anything.
cause i'm extremely hungry. hoo.
each and everytime, shit happens in my life, i'll rant in here.
and forget it when i wake up.
each and everytime, i go thru a heartache, i'll choose to hide from all my friends, and meet up with those i have not met for a long time so erase past memories, and build the new.
each and everytime, i feel emotionally weak, i'll rant in here too.
my emotional pillar, is actually my blog i realise.
not any other friends.
he says its not healthy.
i will in the future topple over because i am my own emotional pillar.
weakness isnt in my dictionary.
showing other people my weak side, is even worst.
thinking back... i wasnt like that last time.
when i go thru heartaches, i'll call up my then best friends.. cry in front of them.. and allow them to see my teary face.. telling them how sad i am, giving them access to my wounded heart.
things changes when that someone left my life out of a sudden 6years ago.
it was the most heart-aching period throughout my life. after that one time.. showing to my then friends.. my weakest side.. where i cried to the sea, screamed at the sea.. and broke down completely. i nearly fainted by the sea because of the sadness. i cried for 4-5hrs non stop. till my eyes was in pain.. but i kept crying and crying.. it went on for mths.
the pain that i went thru, its something i dun wanna go thru it again.
after that, i learn to guard my heart, locked it up and kept it away from everyone else.
i'm an emotional person with tons of romance and love within myself.
i ran.. away from opening up my heart to anyone for a longest time.
am i able to face that fear of pain again?..
or i am actually slowly opening up the coward heart to see the light again?
yes.. honestly. i am afraid of loving a person wholeheartedly.
for..
the pain of that is too much for me to bear.
yet..
i realize.. that i'm slowly.. very slowly..
peeking thru.. into the world.. again.
i'm scared... really.. i am very frighten..
i wonder how i will feel later..
would i go thru what jw always put me thru in the past?..
or
would i be able to pass the day without even feeling anything?
back to the damn cool and confident carol.
(i'm hoping for the 2nd one.)
i think i'll be able to be cool with it. =)
for now.. i aint feeling anything.
cause i'm extremely hungry. hoo.
posted by icy at 11/20/2009 02:08:00 AM
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i'm gonna join...
Thursday, November 19, 2009
my mom with her liquid diet for the next 10days. at least at home.
it starts today.
when i woke up i had a glass of whatever she is having - ensure milk diet supplement.
when for lunch with my gfs - i had a glass of milk tea.
came home feeling hungry - milo.
just weigh myself - 51.5kg. (previously.. 53!!! yeah i sort of slim down alittle from these few days improper meals. hasnt been eating right since i was undergoing tremendous stress)
hmm another 1.5 i'm back to 50.
another 3.5 i'm back to my perfect 48.
i can do it! =P
it starts today.
when i woke up i had a glass of whatever she is having - ensure milk diet supplement.
when for lunch with my gfs - i had a glass of milk tea.
came home feeling hungry - milo.
just weigh myself - 51.5kg. (previously.. 53!!! yeah i sort of slim down alittle from these few days improper meals. hasnt been eating right since i was undergoing tremendous stress)
hmm another 1.5 i'm back to 50.
another 3.5 i'm back to my perfect 48.
i can do it! =P
posted by icy at 11/19/2009 03:54:00 PM
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some pictures... II
i havent been posting pictures because most of them are in my facebook.
if you would like to add me in my facebook, pls do so but do give me a comment that you got it from my blog ok! =D
icy_carol@yahoo.com. sg
some random pics i have been taking for the last 2 mths!
rach birthday 04/11/09
poly gathering @ bugis~ its coming to 9years to our friendship!
my precious collection all red! (i'm saving money for a decent red bag to hold all of them! hee)
my surprise birthday bouquet cake which arrives at the stroke of midnight. =)
(but its a little toooooooooooooooooo sweet for my liking...then again i'm real touched!)
one of those days in office where i was bored and nothing to do. it was a fri i think. =D
lunch at Sheraton treat by my boss! i got fat arms now boohooo!!! =(
cam whoring when i was driving!!
last but not least. centre-ps.com their cake are real nice~ =)
if you would like to add me in my facebook, pls do so but do give me a comment that you got it from my blog ok! =D
icy_carol@yahoo.com. sg
some random pics i have been taking for the last 2 mths!
rach birthday 04/11/09
poly gathering @ bugis~ its coming to 9years to our friendship!
my precious collection all red! (i'm saving money for a decent red bag to hold all of them! hee)
my surprise birthday bouquet cake which arrives at the stroke of midnight. =)
(but its a little toooooooooooooooooo sweet for my liking...then again i'm real touched!)
one of those days in office where i was bored and nothing to do. it was a fri i think. =D
lunch at Sheraton treat by my boss! i got fat arms now boohooo!!! =(
cam whoring when i was driving!!
last but not least. centre-ps.com their cake are real nice~ =)
posted by icy at 11/19/2009 02:03:00 AM
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=)
有你在我身旁， 一切都变得好多了，
有你在我身旁，让我感觉没有什么事情过不了。
有你在我身旁，我感觉幸福是真的，
有你在我身旁，让我感觉被人保护的滋味。
谢谢。。 谢谢你。。 在我最需要依靠的时候， 给了我你的肩膀。。
有你在我身旁，让我感觉没有什么事情过不了。
有你在我身旁，我感觉幸福是真的，
有你在我身旁，让我感觉被人保护的滋味。
谢谢。。 谢谢你。。 在我最需要依靠的时候， 给了我你的肩膀。。
posted by icy at 11/19/2009 01:11:00 AM
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some pictures...
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
enough of me whinning..
thou.. i'm still feeling cornered.. and mentally stressed over all the mess that came together..
some pics taken during my birthday celebration
at intercon hotel with all my girl friends. i love them!
with the guys. =D mass orgy!!
bff giving me kisses for my birthday~
with my colleagues~ my 2nd birthday cake
after intercon my pals and i headed down to df. and i went on a kissing rampage.
i was the happiest girl on that night, thou everything came crushing down the very next day when i receive news of my mom's injury at korea..
and things.. start to pile up..
shit happens. u just needa learn how to...... move on.
thou.. i'm still feeling cornered.. and mentally stressed over all the mess that came together..
some pics taken during my birthday celebration
at intercon hotel with all my girl friends. i love them!
with the guys. =D mass orgy!!
bff giving me kisses for my birthday~
with my colleagues~ my 2nd birthday cake
after intercon my pals and i headed down to df. and i went on a kissing rampage.
i was the happiest girl on that night, thou everything came crushing down the very next day when i receive news of my mom's injury at korea..
and things.. start to pile up..
shit happens. u just needa learn how to...... move on.
posted by icy at 11/18/2009 02:40:00 PM
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carol have cute friends.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
when i ask my 2 besties would they allow their husband/bf to meet up with their old flames........
i have the biggest reaction of all time.. they were so cute!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahaha.
A888 says:
eh
haha
COOL ur head
hahaha
i believe letting guys do things like meet ex gfs is backside itchy de
Q666 says:
WAH LAO, i wont let *** go meet Ex gfs lor
A888says:
woohoo.. the protective wife
Q666 says:
its not la
not rite
esp for our case, we getting married
hahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!
jealousy is a man's worst ever enemy that he could ever triggered in a woman's emotions.
yet jealousy is the one measurement to know the feeling of the other party.
too much is no good. a little bit is healthy.
then again..
the last time carol felt jealousy was when she was 15, and the only time where she couldnt control her temper and herself.
ever since than.. carol have kept her feelings intact, kept her temper in control.
but sometimes..
somehow..
emotions do.. appear out of a sudden which she have no idea what it is.
the tingling feeling in the stomach.. the nauseous feeling.. whats that?
nope, refusal to believe its jealousy becoz.. its not.
keeping my rationality intact.
keeping myself intact.
nope. the past is not happening again.
nope its not.
bah, hooohohohohooo. i'm ok. =P
P.S: SI JW, you made me so freaking paranoid of such things! boo! now i'm no longer cool! idiot. LOL. yes, i'm pointing fault at u again! =X
my cute friends..
A888 says:
that guy is an idiot
see la
like what my friend's horoscope says
give a man a fish, you feed him a day
give a man a fishing rod, you don see him on weekends
Carol Chin ←♀ O][o SurrealisticDream.Blogspot.Com o][O says:
hahahaha
Q666 says:
yah
too much freedom is not good
A888 says:
moral is
yes
too much freedom is bad
HAHA
Q666 says:
like fly kite
--
LOL~~~~~ this is the part where man are most afraid - when the women comes together and gossips.... all hell break loose..
LOL~~~~~
this is the typical example!!!!!
but no.. carol is still keeping cool headed. becoz she treasures her freedom more than anything else. =)
the tingling feeling is really irritating me thou.. grrr. i really feel butterflies in my stomach that i feel like puking. =.=~
i have the biggest reaction of all time.. they were so cute!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahaha.
A888 says:
eh
haha
COOL ur head
hahaha
i believe letting guys do things like meet ex gfs is backside itchy de
Q666 says:
WAH LAO, i wont let *** go meet Ex gfs lor
A888says:
woohoo.. the protective wife
Q666 says:
its not la
not rite
esp for our case, we getting married
hahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!
jealousy is a man's worst ever enemy that he could ever triggered in a woman's emotions.
yet jealousy is the one measurement to know the feeling of the other party.
too much is no good. a little bit is healthy.
then again..
the last time carol felt jealousy was when she was 15, and the only time where she couldnt control her temper and herself.
ever since than.. carol have kept her feelings intact, kept her temper in control.
but sometimes..
somehow..
emotions do.. appear out of a sudden which she have no idea what it is.
the tingling feeling in the stomach.. the nauseous feeling.. whats that?
nope, refusal to believe its jealousy becoz.. its not.
keeping my rationality intact.
keeping myself intact.
nope. the past is not happening again.
nope its not.
bah, hooohohohohooo. i'm ok. =P
P.S: SI JW, you made me so freaking paranoid of such things! boo! now i'm no longer cool! idiot. LOL. yes, i'm pointing fault at u again! =X
my cute friends..
A888 says:
that guy is an idiot
see la
like what my friend's horoscope says
give a man a fish, you feed him a day
give a man a fishing rod, you don see him on weekends
Carol Chin ←♀ O][o SurrealisticDream.Blogspot.Com o][O says:
hahahaha
Q666 says:
yah
too much freedom is not good
A888 says:
moral is
yes
too much freedom is bad
HAHA
Q666 says:
like fly kite
--
LOL~~~~~ this is the part where man are most afraid - when the women comes together and gossips.... all hell break loose..
LOL~~~~~
this is the typical example!!!!!
but no.. carol is still keeping cool headed. becoz she treasures her freedom more than anything else. =)
the tingling feeling is really irritating me thou.. grrr. i really feel butterflies in my stomach that i feel like puking. =.=~
posted by icy at 11/17/2009 04:53:00 PM
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one after another..
one shit after another..
i'm feeling .. extremely shitty right at this moment.
i feel mentally drained.
i feel demoralised.
i feel angry becoz of the fucking General Insurance agent of mine who made me lose my creditability with my family.
extremely shitty.
i have noone to turn to who can give me a solution.
becoz there's no solution to all these problems.
only time.
i'm literally fucked upside down by god, and people ard.
why are things happening one after another..
especially during the last quarter when i'm SUPPOSED to feel extremely motivated to work?!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my head is bursting..
i cant think straight.
i cant think properly.
and i feel extremely vulnerable now.
why is my life suddenly like that huh!
and all i can do is just stay positive myself, and persuade myself that i can go thru this.
i need a pillar of support right now..
a pillar..
which..............................................................
sigh.
kill me.
so i can just dun care abt this.
i'm so tired..
tired from all this.. mental and emotional torment. its just driving me crazy.
so dead tired...
and i just simply wish to shut off and dun care..
but very unfortunately.. i do not have the luxury to do it..
facing the music now from what my fucking GI agent cause.
all becoz of her, i'm in shit now. thank you very much.
i'm feeling .. extremely shitty right at this moment.
i feel mentally drained.
i feel demoralised.
i feel angry becoz of the fucking General Insurance agent of mine who made me lose my creditability with my family.
extremely shitty.
i have noone to turn to who can give me a solution.
becoz there's no solution to all these problems.
only time.
i'm literally fucked upside down by god, and people ard.
why are things happening one after another..
especially during the last quarter when i'm SUPPOSED to feel extremely motivated to work?!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my head is bursting..
i cant think straight.
i cant think properly.
and i feel extremely vulnerable now.
why is my life suddenly like that huh!
and all i can do is just stay positive myself, and persuade myself that i can go thru this.
i need a pillar of support right now..
a pillar..
which..............................................................
sigh.
kill me.
so i can just dun care abt this.
i'm so tired..
tired from all this.. mental and emotional torment. its just driving me crazy.
so dead tired...
and i just simply wish to shut off and dun care..
but very unfortunately.. i do not have the luxury to do it..
facing the music now from what my fucking GI agent cause.
all becoz of her, i'm in shit now. thank you very much.
posted by icy at 11/17/2009 12:44:00 AM
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我踩到大便。。。。
Monday, November 16, 2009
the unluckiest mth of the year.
so much shit happen.
be it work or family.
i'm so sick of it.
sigh.
lesson of the day: DO NOT ASSUME.. always check before speaking. damn my agent. make my lose my creditability in front of my family.
argh.
my whole day is all ruin becoz of her.
)()(*)(*(&**^&%^$%#$@#$&$^&%&*^*
so much shit happen.
be it work or family.
i'm so sick of it.
sigh.
lesson of the day: DO NOT ASSUME.. always check before speaking. damn my agent. make my lose my creditability in front of my family.
argh.
my whole day is all ruin becoz of her.
)()(*)(*(&**^&%^$%#$@#$&$^&%&*^*
posted by icy at 11/16/2009 03:51:00 PM
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funny.
Friday, November 13, 2009
funny how things might turn out to be.
that when i saw him i actually choose to turn ard and walk away.
i'm sorry DD. that perhaps, memories are still lingering around somehow someway.
but i'm glad that the new chapter has began for all.
and that new memories are build everyday to overshadow the old.
chapters of the past may be there.
but everyday i'm writing a new page on my own book call life.
there are times where everyone will sit down, take a sip of tea and talk about the good old times.
and that chapter has now gone to that stage, where its the good old times.
=)
now that the new pages has began, i wonder how would it be with all the new friends, new things, new resolutions be like?
only time will tell.
as exciting as it may be, its all up to me on how i paint the pictures and how i write my story.
hows your book of "life"?
is it as exciting as mine where there's so much ups and downs, people walking in and out..
and how god has turn it this way that you may find out things that noone would say but u just happen to know?
life is a hell of a rollar coaster ride.
i'm loving it. as much as i hate it.
*laughs*
humans just love to challenge the unexpected isnt?
that when i saw him i actually choose to turn ard and walk away.
i'm sorry DD. that perhaps, memories are still lingering around somehow someway.
but i'm glad that the new chapter has began for all.
and that new memories are build everyday to overshadow the old.
chapters of the past may be there.
but everyday i'm writing a new page on my own book call life.
there are times where everyone will sit down, take a sip of tea and talk about the good old times.
and that chapter has now gone to that stage, where its the good old times.
=)
now that the new pages has began, i wonder how would it be with all the new friends, new things, new resolutions be like?
only time will tell.
as exciting as it may be, its all up to me on how i paint the pictures and how i write my story.
hows your book of "life"?
is it as exciting as mine where there's so much ups and downs, people walking in and out..
and how god has turn it this way that you may find out things that noone would say but u just happen to know?
life is a hell of a rollar coaster ride.
i'm loving it. as much as i hate it.
*laughs*
humans just love to challenge the unexpected isnt?
posted by icy at 11/13/2009 01:46:00 AM
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EXPENSIVEEEE
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Been going to mount E for 2 whole days already.
ytd was to see the plastic surgeon.
mom jaws aint fractured but more of the upper joints.. so no operation needed. just need to let it heal naturally.
however.. today.. we went for see orthopedic. apparently she broke 2 of her left ribs and dunno how many on the right..
again, no surgery needed coz rib bones can only heal naturally itself. just have to take Vit D and Calcium.
however.. her knees injury requires operation but minor one coz she tear one of her tissues badly and it needs operation on it to mend the tear. =.=..
all in all.. all her injuries can only be healed naturally..
therefore.. she will take fucking long to recover. coz cannot operate on them.
SIGH..
and its fucking expensive can!!
Xray ytd on jaws - $ 170
Doctor visit - $160
today:
MRI scan : $681
Xray on chest : $70
Doc: $170
=.=~~~~~ exp can!
ytd was to see the plastic surgeon.
mom jaws aint fractured but more of the upper joints.. so no operation needed. just need to let it heal naturally.
however.. today.. we went for see orthopedic. apparently she broke 2 of her left ribs and dunno how many on the right..
again, no surgery needed coz rib bones can only heal naturally itself. just have to take Vit D and Calcium.
however.. her knees injury requires operation but minor one coz she tear one of her tissues badly and it needs operation on it to mend the tear. =.=..
all in all.. all her injuries can only be healed naturally..
therefore.. she will take fucking long to recover. coz cannot operate on them.
SIGH..
and its fucking expensive can!!
Xray ytd on jaws - $ 170
Doctor visit - $160
today:
MRI scan : $681
Xray on chest : $70
Doc: $170
=.=~~~~~ exp can!
posted by icy at 11/11/2009 04:15:00 PM
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what can go wrong will go wrong
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
i'm tasting it.
what a wonderful birthday present i had.
mom had a bad fall in korea, broke her jaws, and 2 tooth, and her chin had stitches coz it was split into 2.
came back ytd night and sent her to A&E. they say she is not serious enough that requires operation immediately so she was send back home.
today early in the morning i was called back office for a seminar. and first thing mama ask me is where am i going why am i not sending her to hospital.
HELPPPP i HATE THISS.
so much things cock up at office.
so many lapse policy due to some personal issues client faces.
i cock up some stuffs.
and i'm feelings so stress up now
than i feel like crying.
help.
what a wonderful birthday i had.
what a wonderful birthday present i had.
mom had a bad fall in korea, broke her jaws, and 2 tooth, and her chin had stitches coz it was split into 2.
came back ytd night and sent her to A&E. they say she is not serious enough that requires operation immediately so she was send back home.
today early in the morning i was called back office for a seminar. and first thing mama ask me is where am i going why am i not sending her to hospital.
HELPPPP i HATE THISS.
so much things cock up at office.
so many lapse policy due to some personal issues client faces.
i cock up some stuffs.
and i'm feelings so stress up now
than i feel like crying.
help.
what a wonderful birthday i had.
posted by icy at 11/10/2009 10:13:00 AM
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time flies.
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
my blog has been around for 4 years and counting.
all the way back to 2005..
and as my birthday is approaching, i went back to read what have i done for all the different years and the different surprises i receive from people.
2005 - i forgotten about it until i read it again what he has done and celebrating at devils (my very first time celebrating a birthday at clubs) resulting me in getting drunk and vomitting over there. lol..
2006 - exam happen to fall on my birthday itself, so i didnt had time to plan a celebration. I had at that time, my close friends with me. jane brianca viper fred and kurt. it was a simple yet heartwarming ktv session.
2007 - chalet @ ECP with another him + my other friends. i had my colleagues and jane+brianca and other people with me. boss sabo-ed me with cake, i was running around.. trying to hunt him down.. lol.. fun.
2008 - a small celebration with again brianca and another him + colleagues @ mind's cafe. mini celebration, no surprises, i planned it myself. told myself i couldnt stand a small celebration, and love having all my friends around me to celebrate with me. and that i will make a huge one next year.
2009 - ahh.. the up coming one. this time round i planned it over at inter-continental! cant wait for it!!!
i love my birthday. =)
all the way back to 2005..
and as my birthday is approaching, i went back to read what have i done for all the different years and the different surprises i receive from people.
2005 - i forgotten about it until i read it again what he has done and celebrating at devils (my very first time celebrating a birthday at clubs) resulting me in getting drunk and vomitting over there. lol..
2006 - exam happen to fall on my birthday itself, so i didnt had time to plan a celebration. I had at that time, my close friends with me. jane brianca viper fred and kurt. it was a simple yet heartwarming ktv session.
2007 - chalet @ ECP with another him + my other friends. i had my colleagues and jane+brianca and other people with me. boss sabo-ed me with cake, i was running around.. trying to hunt him down.. lol.. fun.
2008 - a small celebration with again brianca and another him + colleagues @ mind's cafe. mini celebration, no surprises, i planned it myself. told myself i couldnt stand a small celebration, and love having all my friends around me to celebrate with me. and that i will make a huge one next year.
2009 - ahh.. the up coming one. this time round i planned it over at inter-continental! cant wait for it!!!
i love my birthday. =)
posted by icy at 11/03/2009 10:07:00 AM
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Things i do when i was a kid
Just have this sudden urge to blog about this as memories came into my mind out of a sudden and i dunno why..
i miss being a kid where there's no worries about anything in the world.
But the kids now and the kids then... there's so much difference!!
i remember when i was a kid....
1) Playing block catching with the neighbouring kids
2) Running around the playground with sand, start a mini fire, and catching around the playground..
3) climbing up and down the then playground..
4) little indians..
5) Hopscotch..
6) Days without a hp but a pager instead..
7) Days of waking up at 6am rushing to be the first one to go up the school bus..
8) Days of waking up at 6am.. reaching school early just to be the first one in school..
9) Days of carrying EVERYTHING to school..
10) fire sparkles...
11) crying and begging for a man to stay beside me.. (this is the worst!!)
12) flaring up at everything and anything that dun work my way
13) low self esteem..
14) outcasted in school due to my bad personality
15) i friend u u dun fren her, we are no longer friends.. etc. (wtf!! this is so childish! hahaha)
16) gangs were so "sat"! omg~ hahaha
and lots lots more!
thinking back on my childhood, i laughed.
yes, there's no barbie dolls when i was a kid.
i was like a boyboy, doing what boys do when they were a kid.
playgrounds, and sand were my fun and entertainment.
heading out at 1pm, returning home at 5 only when mom comes down with a cane to chase us back.
how was yr childhood? very different from mine?
and kids nowadays?..
its all computerise now... boring. =/
i miss being a kid where there's no worries about anything in the world.
But the kids now and the kids then... there's so much difference!!
i remember when i was a kid....
1) Playing block catching with the neighbouring kids
2) Running around the playground with sand, start a mini fire, and catching around the playground..
3) climbing up and down the then playground..
4) little indians..
5) Hopscotch..
6) Days without a hp but a pager instead..
7) Days of waking up at 6am rushing to be the first one to go up the school bus..
8) Days of waking up at 6am.. reaching school early just to be the first one in school..
9) Days of carrying EVERYTHING to school..
10) fire sparkles...
11) crying and begging for a man to stay beside me.. (this is the worst!!)
12) flaring up at everything and anything that dun work my way
13) low self esteem..
14) outcasted in school due to my bad personality
15) i friend u u dun fren her, we are no longer friends.. etc. (wtf!! this is so childish! hahaha)
16) gangs were so "sat"! omg~ hahaha
and lots lots more!
thinking back on my childhood, i laughed.
yes, there's no barbie dolls when i was a kid.
i was like a boyboy, doing what boys do when they were a kid.
playgrounds, and sand were my fun and entertainment.
heading out at 1pm, returning home at 5 only when mom comes down with a cane to chase us back.
how was yr childhood? very different from mine?
and kids nowadays?..
its all computerise now... boring. =/
posted by icy at 11/03/2009 12:11:00 AM
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