Long before we knew what is love, everyone on the streets, on the tv and your friends around you will always mention that the first love is always unforgettable.

Is it true? i dun think so.

My first love? i cannot remember much of it anymore? and i dun even know what was love at tt point.

I personally feel that.. the most unforgettable love that a person would never be able to forget.. is the one that he/she loved but was never treated "fairly" one way or another..

like.. you (lets take it from a girls point of view, but it can be vise versa) love him alot, but he dun really love you.

like.. you love him alot but he 2-time you.

like.. you love him alot.. but.. things somehow.. didnt end it as you really expected and there goes the r/s.

the most unforgettable r/s, is the one you loved and wasnt reciprocated in terms of actions and feelings..

the most unforgettable r/s, is one that you loved most, and you thought he/she is gonna be the last one.. and things ended.. the uglier way.

the most unforgettable r/s, is the one that you loved.. and you put in so much time, effort, love and care.. but you ended with hurt, pain tears and aches..

the most unforgettable r/s.. is always the one that filled with the most hurt and pain. becoz.. you love so much.. and therefore it hurts so much.. it was so painful, thats why.. you can never be able to forget that one and only person that brought you that tremendous amount of pain.

and the most unforgettable r/s, is one where you arent the person on the winning end. meaning, you are the one that love him more than he love you.

Yet at the same time.. as time goes, hatred was being soothe by time leaving only memories.. leaving behind traces of the past relationship that both has shared.

Then again... you might be the only one that feels that it was unforgettable. becoz you couldnt get him to treat you wholeheartedly therefore you couldnt forget coz you lost the game.

Yes you may disagree with what i said.

that r/s arent about winning or losing. But lets see it from this point of view, alot of people in this world hates failure.

when you are in a game, and u didnt get the first prize like you expected, you will feel extreme "irritated" dun you? and when that happen, you will never forget the 1st time that u failed horribly.

And if r/s is indeed a game.. definitely winning = future. and that losing = another failed r/s. Many has been thru fuckedup r/s, but the most unforgettable one is the one that you love the most and yet it fails isnt it?

its not definitely only the first love.. unless your first love is the one that u love the most..

my most unforgettable one?..

its a secret... =P

like i mention.. its one which contains alot of pain, yet its one which contains alot of memories...

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Pics pics!

Finally Finally I tried the Popeye chicken over at T3!! And truthfully speaking..... its so much better then KFC!!



The chicken is juicier, the fries are less oily, the salad taste better, the burger has more veg and the bread is softer! and i love their mash potato!







and you know what is the thing i like best?.. its their biscuit! its actually scones.. and this is the first time i had it.. and it taste heavenly!!!



i wan popeye!! no more KFC! =P

after a wonderful dinner.. i walked around t3 as i have not been to it since its opening. =X

what i like abt t3 is their ceiling! =)



t3 is big.. very very big..



and i saw this! technology has advance so much! the last time i used a paid phone (pager times.. in sec school).. dun even have such a big screen.



how can i miss this out? =) its a symbol of our Changi Airport.



fri - Velvet

the drunkard who left early...



Jean babe and caroline~



moi and jean~



C&C (caroline and carol, hahaha)





oh yes! jane was there too! its been a long long time.. she came out of her hill for a while. lol.



candid candid.



we left around 2am with me quite high..

we have so much drinks that june came over to us in the toilet and ask us not to head back. lol.
there were like 5 trays of shots, 30+ glasses of martinis and 2 jugs of Hennessey.

Caroline, jean and i left for phuture as we needa dance it out.

it was a crazy night.. and another up coming one next week since its chris birthday!!

Birthday boy next week ! he is so gonna die. hahahahaha!



Random:

i was driving.. and i saw the most beautiful rainbow in my whole life!! my phone camera isnt that great.. but i manage to capture a little bit of it on my phone!!! it was so nice nice nice nice nice!! can u see it?? its at the bottom left of my pic..



today i brought pepper to SGRgirls meetup. he very guai.. for awhile. lol.. manage to capture him sitting down.. he is always moving around my car most of the time during the ride.. and yeah.. he needs grooming soon!



let u all see ghost! hahahaha. moi w/o makeup and hair up up. disgusting. but its ok. i like disgusting pics. LOL!



i have super dark eyerings.. anyone has all natural remedies for me? lol.

tried creating a blog for CJ.

apparently the new blogger interface cannot accept blog codings from the old one.

i have a headache uploading it.

hence i have decided to give it up.

its stupid. =.=~

i can upload it to my one but i cannot upload it to his one when we are all blogspot. wtf is this man?

shit blogger. dunno what the fuck are they doing.

then again i dunno abt xanga and LJ.

are they better?

alot of ppl switch to LJ.

o.O?

oh well.

recently there's another blog war among 2 young models online.

i really dun understand what are the youngsters thinking.

i arent that old. but 5 years can be a huge difference in mindset and thinking.

apparently, its all becoz a fan of the twins.. commented that another model arent as good looking as them.. and the other model was upset and started finding problems with the twins.

to the extend the other model wanted to sue the twins for insulting her and ruining her reputation?

and god, they are already mothers! (out of the 3, 2 are young mothers..)

and all of them are just 20yr olds..

what is the world becoming?

*shake head*

this is call... generation gap..

i feel that i am getting old.

and teenagers nowadays are getting more "power"..

Gone are the days where fist and blood (one to one, 1st floor to 12th floor.. "call water".. whatever u call it..) are used to settle bad bloods.

gone are the days where valentino, MCM and chantel thomas were hot brands..

gone are the days where pointed combs where the in thing.

gone are the days where we hang out at void decks.

and gone are the days where afternoons are spent talking on the phones bitching with one another.

everything has been moved to the cyberspace where one is unhappy with another? they blog. and let the whole world sees it. and the next moment they remove.

if still not happy? threaten to sue. =.=

yes, its a kiddo fight.

yet it keeps the internet busy gossiping about them.

with a topic to gossip about.

i wonder if they are happy that everyone is reading it, everyone knows about it.

and i wonder if this is the kind of attention that they are seeking.

i personally feel that all 3 are pretty. they have a personality of their own, and they really know how to dress well to bring out the different feel that they want. they make boys turn their head and sees them one more time. so why do such actions and make everyone shake their heads?

*shrugs* i wonder.

welcome to the 21st century.

Life..

Sorry for the lack of post!

i was busy working!

and i hit my this month target!

thats why! thankfully~!

=)

i feel good. not becoz i hit target, but becoz of the amount of people i managed to help with. =)

anyhow, i had a "hard" time last week coz i was busy with the roadshow over at tampines!

and someone actually recognise me on the streets and post in my friendster comments! o.O

that was my 2nd time doing roadshow. fun experience! hahaha.

imagine everyone siaming me.. lol.

there's another one coming up.. over at either hougang or vivo. o.O

remember come find me k. lol. i'll inform all of u! =D

thats why no time post last week. busy with my roadshow. sorry!

weekends?

was.. spent at roadshows lor.. nv even club at all.

but i did manage to catch "Death Race" though.

its a nice show. definitely worth the 9.50 if u are watching on the weekend!

love the ending. =)

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When i'm free.. i love to surf the net for other bloggers.

Especially those that has alot of pictures on them.

Especially female bloggers. those pretty ones.

I prefer blogs that write about their life. About how they bitch about others.

You know gossips? lol.

Yeah, i am such who love gossips.

like the recent war btw xx and dy?

previously there was another war btw FHM finalist naomi and another singapore young model vampie. read here!

http://xiaoyaonu-de-vampie.blogspot.com/2008/04/pipping-hot-scandal-of-miss-n.html

naomi's: http://naomiliu.blogspot.com/

woohoo.

Some says vampie is... a little too much of herself.. treating her baby like an accessories..

http://xiaoyaonu-de-vampie.blogspot.com/2008/08/dinner-ps.html

personally i feel that she is actually quite pretty. i mean, above average definitely. even after giving birth ok! thats the amazing part.

and yeah, i did mention that i will post some hot bloggers... above are some (if u like young young girls..)

if you prefer something more mature looking..



http://nirarara.com/ <= she's the cover girl for this month's maxim!

and for the extreme adult category!

http://thegutterpost.blogspot.com/ <= alot of celebrities bare.. breast. but its not becoz of that thats why i read it ok! i read it becoz he (i think its a guy! ccant be a girl!) is always very uptodate with his news! You can get the lastest scandals all over the world just by reading here. =)


and yeah.. i love looking at pretty girls pictures.


So sometimes i feel that i'm turning lesbian.


maybe i am. =X


i love looking. doesnt mean i get turn on by them! and NO! i dun! =.=~


i was just kidding about the turning lesbian part. lol.


i dun really fancy guys blog, becoz.. guys blogs ... doesnt appeal to me.

the lango is different..!


bah~


pics pics.


Some "artist" pics which i have taken last week. The new shopping mall at pasir ris downtown east! the night view!




You know how "rainy" recently our weather is right? It was raining cats and dogs on sat and i saw this beautiful sight on my car windscreen..



if only i have those super good camera which i can make it even clearer. i think it will be so much nicer.

look at each of the size of the raindrops..and how evenly spread out they are. i feel its a rare sight. or is it common? i dunno. this is the first time i see it though. =)



its beauttttttttttttiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiifffffffffffffffffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuuullllllllllllllllllllllllllll~~

lack of post lack of post.

arent posting as much as i do last time.

reason being.. i'm always not at home.

and by the time i reach home i'll be so brain dead that i dun feel like blogging. =(

i put on weight.

alot.

and now i look so bloated.

and becoz of my constant rubbing of my eyes before i sleep everyday..

my eyebags are getting worse and worse.

i look so.... ugly! =(

=( =( =(

oh well.

this week. i clubbed on both days.

wed and fri (again)

its been a long long long time since i last went mambo.

missed it so therefore i headed down.

and god, the music is getting from bad to worse.

=.=

it was so bored, the songs were ok before 1.. but once it hit 1.. the songs suxs to the max till 2am! and right before we decided to leave (becoz we got tired of waiting for nice songs..) it was still having sucky songs. =.=

sent all of them back before heading home....

friday was eric's birthday celebration.

all of us headed down to velvet.

some of them left early.

leaving some of us behind.

the girls decided to go phuture.

i think i'm growing alot older.

i dunno why i no longer love r&b as much as i used to.

(i was a chinablack siao ok!) lol..

the songs were ok, but i no longer know how to dance .. or should i say i feel weird dancing r&b in dresses. lol. (where's my cargo pants, truckers cap "i dunno if its spelled like this", and my adidas shoes?!)

well.. yeah for a period of time i was.. a r&b wanna-be due to.. some influences.

and hey i wear them to clubs too ok! but i think i deleted all the pics. lol lol..

and another reason why i feel i'm too old for phuture...

is becoz of the extreme young crowd over there..

as young as 18.. or 21.. or 22..

i'm already 25... some are even younger than my youngest brother and most are younger then my younger brother.

I guess. .. i have grown out of .. places of young crowds..

like how i used to read teenage.. till i reaches 21.. then i begin to wonder why do i feel that the auntie agony section.. is more and more childish? then i realise.. i have grown out of it.

phuture.. is definitely.. too young a crowd.

boilers might be better i feel.

r&B.. crowd is older.. live band is good. (if i remember correctly)

yes alot of complains abt clubs..

i guess i have come to a stage.. where chilling suits me more on weekends. i dun mind clubbing and dancing.. but give me a better place, with a better crowd.. and with more hunks to look at!
(NO I WILL NOT QUIT MAMBO!)

my eye candies must look mature! definitely must look older than me! looking at boys (yes BOYS!) gives me the creeps! (maybe becoz i have 2 younger brothers..)

indeed. i feel so weird.. looking at young BOYS... damn weird. =.=

i dun mind hanging around as phuture.. as long as i'm dressed to that occasion.

but once i am dressed for phuture. means i am not dress for velvet.

o.O!

how can!

i will look so underdress, or should i say.. weirdly dress for velvet! lol.. its so out of the place la~!

ok. dilemma.

ah fuck. i think i'm just cranky.

pics pics!

mandy and jane.

Jane has not clubbed for a longest time for some reason. and she finally get out of the hole for 2hrs before heading back into it again. lol.





i couldnt take a nice shot of myself, so i decided to take an ugly one..



fri

before heading down... my drama-mama lashes! =D

love it! i look like a doll wannabe. lol.



act cute i know. but u see. i tried taking a nice pic of myself.. but all ended up so fugly! so i decided to "cover" my bottom face with my hand. so the focus will be on my eyes.



arent those lashes pretty?! =D not me. the lashes.



chris and i. and he is red from drinking. *shake head*



jean darling and i. i have not seen her for quite sometime. (Scream: I dun wanna be just yr clubbing kakis!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) lol~



aiya, i know i zao geng. pls ignore. lol lol. never see bra before meh! =X



chris, eric, eric's wife and june



me jean and caroline. our face were "slapped" hard by some unknown forces..



jean june and caroline. i realise the 4 of us.. double J double C. lol!





june and i left at 2 away from phuture.. becoz.. we couldnt take the crowd. we went for supper instead at the 糖水店 opposite of great world.. with all the rest.

i ordered this! its nice! their 菊花蜂蜜茶！



reached home and KO-ed......

that ends my fri....

Alot of people commented that MOE2 is not as nice as MOE.

After watching the show, i personally love this show alot.

why?

it shows the ugliness of humans.

In terms of being a son, a daughter-in-law, a grandchild.

the pain of being a mother, and the pain of taking care of the elderly who is suffering from one of the 30 Critical illness.

We humans, are getting more and more selfish, more and more oblivious to filial piety.

Jack Neo act as the 2nd brother in the family, who is the most wealthy among them.

Having a bungalow, and drives a BMW. Yet, when it comes to taking care of the mother, he pushes the duty to the elder brother, who has low education, with 3 daughters to take care of, and a housewife. He only earns 1-2k per month, barely make months end.

Yet, when the mother goes into hospital for the first time, they have to share the cost equally.

because the wife of Jack Neo says that never to let the other brothers know how much he earns.

What has the world becoming?

To selfish among siblings? to save and be selfish towards the mother? who spend almost 150k to 200k on them trying to bring them up to now?

Even when all 3 of them.. faces financial difficulty and had to borrow money from the mother, she took out her money meant to save for her final expenses.

She gave without asking back. They took it for granted and threw her around when she's sick becoz none wants to take care of her.

yes all of us will say wtf, how can they do that.

yet, out of 10.. almost 8 will do that to their mother.

The underlying meaning.. You cannot depend on your children anymore.

You gave birth to them.. not to get back anything in return.

You gave birth to them.. is to fulfill your duties as a human, to born and reborn.

To make the world continue to move on.

I was thinking, if the mother have had prepared a sum of money for her retirement, she wouldnt have to face all these problems..

when her last hospitalisation, all 3 brothers was in a fix as they couldnt afford the high charges of private hospital. yet, only the private hospital gave the best medical treatment and service.

if she had purchase a hospitalisation plan, they wouldnt have to face it.

if she had purchase a life plan, she wouldnt be in such a fix herself, bring thrown around by her children becoz taking care of her is a chore...

Insurance is important. it is very.. important.

can anyone tell me if there is any product, that gives you "money back guarantee" upon death or CC?

can anyone tell me if there is any product that helps you to save money, gives you a high interest, yet at the same time gives you protection?

if you guys have not watched that show, please do so.

its a nice show, and i strongly recommend all of you to watch it and think deeper..

noone wants to end up like the mother, but everyone will if nothing is done to prepare for old age.

If you would like me to review your protection and coverage, to help you plan and give ideas on how to plan for the years to come.. do email me.

i just wanna make sure all of you are prepare for the days to come.

no obligations, dun worry.

icy_carol@yahoo.com.sg

=(

kanna ulcer on my lips! and it hurts like hell after i RUB salt on it so that it can faster heal!

i teared coz it hurts so badly! grr grr.

i hope it faster heal. i look so ugly now. =(



my lower lips looks bloated now coz i just applied salt on it. =(

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brought pepper to pasir ris farm on sunday.

he was "raped" by 3 male dogs!!!



this is the first time that i brought him out to interact with other dogs.

not bad for a start.

but.. i am wondering if my dog is a gay.

apparently all the male dogs over there "humped" him! and i have to save him becoz he just let them hump!!!!!!!!!

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Yesterday went to pay my aunt a visit.





his son whom just turn 1 year old!

he is a cutie la~ love smiling at everyone.

and is very friendly.

plus he loves to laugh.

see! he lets me take pics together with him!





i love his eyes. big big eyes! =)

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P.S: Should i cut my hair short short again or leave it long long? can everyone tag me pls? =X

short?



or mid??



or long long longgggggggggg again?




??????

Attended a private house party organised by the velvet gang on friday.

no pics taken becoz.. i somehow forgot to.

lol.

was preoccupied with the fact that the view is excellent.. (thou i still prefer bayshore's view.. but golden mile complex apartment is fabulous too)

and the renovation was like a walk in pub.

that reminds me on the "perfect" house that i used to like in serangoon gardens when i was working in DBS.

the whole 3rd storey of the bunglow is the master bedroom where once u walk up the stairs.. in the bed on your right.. with a huge walk in wardrobe and outside is a personal jacuzzi!

i used to work in DBS mortgage loan.. going from showflats to showflats looking at the different designs of the condos and bunglows.. how the interior designers did to make them look "yummy" hahaha.

its an eye opener year for me in 2005.. with my first full time job in a big company.

those were the days..... =)

it was a great experience working with them.

it was a great experience for me.

but somehow my hardworking-ness were gone when i went back to school.

i become so nua that i cannot believe myself.

=(

now i no longer have the privilege to..

woke up from my dream, and had a huge welcome to reality.

*clap**clap*

time to wake up carol, and run.

run run run.. waiting for that one day where i looked back into my early twenties..

and said.. hey thank god i had my mentors around to guide me..

if not i would have been a useless bum who keeps running around the rat races chasing after things that will never come true.

be focus carol. be very focus.