Time Flies
Friday, February 29, 2008
I'm in my mid 20s.
At the age where i no longer can play.
At the age where i no longer can just based on my feelings to do anything.
At the age where i have to be rational before making any decisions.
People comes and go in my life.
Thinking back, how many friends have i known and have stepped out of my life?
Countless. I sometimes do still see a few on the streets but they no longer recognize me so i never did bother to even say hi.. To save myself the embarrassment u see.
Many has told me... u no longer young.
Its time to seriously think about what u want in life.
Especially in terms of man..
U no longer have the youth to just try yr luck or based on yr feelings.
Do i really no longer have time on my side?
I am not reaching my 30s.
But everyone is like scaring me.
Will i be left on the shelf? lol lol.
Even if i do, i better make sure i have my own money, car and private apartment!
And i think i will.
then again, i'm a very dependent gf who appears to be independent when it comes to friends?
I think so.
Or do i have a split character?
Who exactly am i?
I wonder.
*shrugs*
I feel aimless today.. Somehow feel that i'm lacking something.
What is it?
At the age where i no longer can play.
At the age where i no longer can just based on my feelings to do anything.
At the age where i have to be rational before making any decisions.
People comes and go in my life.
Thinking back, how many friends have i known and have stepped out of my life?
Countless. I sometimes do still see a few on the streets but they no longer recognize me so i never did bother to even say hi.. To save myself the embarrassment u see.
Many has told me... u no longer young.
Its time to seriously think about what u want in life.
Especially in terms of man..
U no longer have the youth to just try yr luck or based on yr feelings.
Do i really no longer have time on my side?
I am not reaching my 30s.
But everyone is like scaring me.
Will i be left on the shelf? lol lol.
Even if i do, i better make sure i have my own money, car and private apartment!
And i think i will.
then again, i'm a very dependent gf who appears to be independent when it comes to friends?
I think so.
Or do i have a split character?
Who exactly am i?
I wonder.
*shrugs*
I feel aimless today.. Somehow feel that i'm lacking something.
What is it?
posted by icy at 2/29/2008 01:11:00 PM
Busy like a Bee
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Been rushing for deadlines recently.
Do not even have enough time to rest at home till today.
Wed
Initially i wanted to go zouk. but fred called and say zouk packed like sardines.
So we shifted to lunar and MOS instead.
Partied till 4am then reach home.
Super tired sia.
They drink alcohol, i drink plain water. =(
was the designated driver..
thats why i couldnt drink..
it was kinda a boring night.. thankfully i love dancing more than drinking. lol.
Thurs
Met up with my ex DBS colleagues for dinner and drinks.
Its been almost a year since we last met up like this.
Miss them lots! =)
and it so happen that one of my ex colleague is one of my ex biz partner.
such a small world. =)
Pics Pics
Tues night Mike was bored, and so he jio-ed us out for a drink. Recommended timber next to the old national museum.. we left quite early coz pepper was sick and i had to rush home to send him to the vet..
Wed
Mos toilet. memories. oh and i cut my hair. can u see it?
Jane and moi
I had nothing better to do... they drinking i..... cant drink. =(
See! =( we were at lunar.
Jacob and kurt at the smoking room... it stinks like hell.
jacob and his...............
They dun really wanna take pics with me as u can see. lol.
alfred and moi~
He had sore eyes.
He look like he hasnt shit for days.
Jane (back to MOS)
Moi
Kenny and jane
Kenny and moi
My DBS ex Collegues
Pepper recovers the very next day. (thankfully)
But... unfortunately for me... he now back to his usual active self and he now can jump onto my bed.
Today... he woke me up by jumping on me.
OMG.....
then again i rather he is this bubbly then being sick.. becoz he just cost me $200 for bringing him to the doc. =.=
its even more exp then my med bills. =.=~
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Random:
Recently, i got into contact with one of my SIM friend whom i met him outside lunar about 2months ago.
Was chatting with him online and then i realise that i hardly talk to him in Sch. (firstly, he is hardly around in school, secondly, he is not in my project team)
And then we were chatting about my job and there he was telling me a relatively new opinion that others have on me.
He was telling me i'm like "Miss Popular" in school?
Since when?
I didnt know nor realise it?
I dun really know everyone in school and i thought my profile was kinda low.
Hmm...
"Miss popular" in what way?
I have alot of friends?
o.O
I dun have suitors in school, never once did.
If its talking abt pals... others have even more.
So where did he get the idea i'm "Miss Popular"?!
=.=
想不通。
Do not even have enough time to rest at home till today.
Wed
Initially i wanted to go zouk. but fred called and say zouk packed like sardines.
So we shifted to lunar and MOS instead.
Partied till 4am then reach home.
Super tired sia.
They drink alcohol, i drink plain water. =(
was the designated driver..
thats why i couldnt drink..
it was kinda a boring night.. thankfully i love dancing more than drinking. lol.
Thurs
Met up with my ex DBS colleagues for dinner and drinks.
Its been almost a year since we last met up like this.
Miss them lots! =)
and it so happen that one of my ex colleague is one of my ex biz partner.
such a small world. =)
Pics Pics
Tues night Mike was bored, and so he jio-ed us out for a drink. Recommended timber next to the old national museum.. we left quite early coz pepper was sick and i had to rush home to send him to the vet..
Wed
Mos toilet. memories. oh and i cut my hair. can u see it?
Jane and moi
I had nothing better to do... they drinking i..... cant drink. =(
See! =( we were at lunar.
Jacob and kurt at the smoking room... it stinks like hell.
jacob and his...............
They dun really wanna take pics with me as u can see. lol.
alfred and moi~
He had sore eyes.
He look like he hasnt shit for days.
Jane (back to MOS)
Moi
Kenny and jane
Kenny and moi
My DBS ex Collegues
Pepper recovers the very next day. (thankfully)
But... unfortunately for me... he now back to his usual active self and he now can jump onto my bed.
Today... he woke me up by jumping on me.
OMG.....
then again i rather he is this bubbly then being sick.. becoz he just cost me $200 for bringing him to the doc. =.=
its even more exp then my med bills. =.=~
-------------
Random:
Recently, i got into contact with one of my SIM friend whom i met him outside lunar about 2months ago.
Was chatting with him online and then i realise that i hardly talk to him in Sch. (firstly, he is hardly around in school, secondly, he is not in my project team)
And then we were chatting about my job and there he was telling me a relatively new opinion that others have on me.
He was telling me i'm like "Miss Popular" in school?
Since when?
I didnt know nor realise it?
I dun really know everyone in school and i thought my profile was kinda low.
Hmm...
"Miss popular" in what way?
I have alot of friends?
o.O
I dun have suitors in school, never once did.
If its talking abt pals... others have even more.
So where did he get the idea i'm "Miss Popular"?!
=.=
想不通。
posted by icy at 2/28/2008 11:56:00 PM
Pepper is sick
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
he scare the shit of of me 3hrs ago.
maid sms me saying that he diarrhea 4 times in a row within an hour.
I rush back home (thanks mike for sending me back) and frantically trying to find a 24hrs vet.
Thanks to RS and vin who helped me source out the 24hrs vet hospital "mount pleasant animal hospital" located at 232 Whitley Road (S)297824.
Thanks to wayne who drove me down and accompanied me.
I was on the verge of tears as my previous dog died of food poisoning..
So i was very worried about him.
Vet diagnosed him with bacteria infection which is normally found in dustbin.
(Pepper previously had taken some waste food by going thru my dustbin earlier in the afternoon.... that greedy dog...)
She gave him some charcoal pills and antibiotics..
Thankfully everything is alright now..
and he is sleeping soundly right after we reaches home.
Thanks for everyone's concern..
Pepper is fine now and would heal after a few days.
=)
Appreciate everyone's concern, and especially to Wayne who took the time off the drive us there.
and not to mention RS who offered to drive us down even tho he lived quite far away from us.
Thank you. =)
maid sms me saying that he diarrhea 4 times in a row within an hour.
I rush back home (thanks mike for sending me back) and frantically trying to find a 24hrs vet.
Thanks to RS and vin who helped me source out the 24hrs vet hospital "mount pleasant animal hospital" located at 232 Whitley Road (S)297824.
Thanks to wayne who drove me down and accompanied me.
I was on the verge of tears as my previous dog died of food poisoning..
So i was very worried about him.
Vet diagnosed him with bacteria infection which is normally found in dustbin.
(Pepper previously had taken some waste food by going thru my dustbin earlier in the afternoon.... that greedy dog...)
She gave him some charcoal pills and antibiotics..
Thankfully everything is alright now..
and he is sleeping soundly right after we reaches home.
Thanks for everyone's concern..
Pepper is fine now and would heal after a few days.
=)
Appreciate everyone's concern, and especially to Wayne who took the time off the drive us there.
and not to mention RS who offered to drive us down even tho he lived quite far away from us.
Thank you. =)
posted by icy at 2/27/2008 03:03:00 AM
My Baby
Sunday, February 24, 2008
He is getting naughtier by the day that my maid is beginning to feel the headache.
My mom complains about him doing his "biz" on the carpet in their room.
My maid complains about his biting habits.
Everyday i hear complains. lol.
But he is cute la~
Even tho they complains, the first thing that they always look for when they reach home his pepper running towards them wagging his tail and hoping to be "sayang" by them.
My dog is growing bigger, and having his attitude.
When he is unhappy, he will bite us a little harder.
When he do something wrong, he will hide.
When he sees my dad goes down he will follow.
Every morning when he is release from his play pen, he will run towards my bed and try to wake me up by jumping on my bed to lick and bite me.
When we take the leash, he will start running towards the door knowing that its "gai gai" time.
Isnt he loveable? =DDDD
There's so much to talk about him! =D
He pose for me. =D
His 四脚朝天 sleeping position
Him biting my hand.
Him playing with his toy
A joyless night..
I just lose 100bucks in mj. =.=~
My mom complains about him doing his "biz" on the carpet in their room.
My maid complains about his biting habits.
Everyday i hear complains. lol.
But he is cute la~
Even tho they complains, the first thing that they always look for when they reach home his pepper running towards them wagging his tail and hoping to be "sayang" by them.
My dog is growing bigger, and having his attitude.
When he is unhappy, he will bite us a little harder.
When he do something wrong, he will hide.
When he sees my dad goes down he will follow.
Every morning when he is release from his play pen, he will run towards my bed and try to wake me up by jumping on my bed to lick and bite me.
When we take the leash, he will start running towards the door knowing that its "gai gai" time.
Isnt he loveable? =DDDD
There's so much to talk about him! =D
He pose for me. =D
His 四脚朝天 sleeping position
Him biting my hand.
Him playing with his toy
A joyless night..
I just lose 100bucks in mj. =.=~
posted by icy at 2/24/2008 05:42:00 AM
The Storm
Saturday, February 23, 2008
The storm is back.
I can see dark clouds forming outside my hut.
I tried very hard to prevent the storm from entering my house.
But my windows broke down on me as i tried to pull it back hard.
I was nearly drowned previously, due to this storm.
I thought it was a small rain and i love rain.. so i let it enter into my hut without any form of struggle.
But i manage to stay afloat from the previous time..
Now its back and i fear for it.
Should i seek another shelter?
Or should i stick with my decision of staying and see what will happen?
Maybe this time round.. i wun be drown? I might be able to learn how to swim (finally)?
What would u do if u are face with such a situation?
Life and death.
I can see dark clouds forming outside my hut.
I tried very hard to prevent the storm from entering my house.
But my windows broke down on me as i tried to pull it back hard.
I was nearly drowned previously, due to this storm.
I thought it was a small rain and i love rain.. so i let it enter into my hut without any form of struggle.
But i manage to stay afloat from the previous time..
Now its back and i fear for it.
Should i seek another shelter?
Or should i stick with my decision of staying and see what will happen?
Maybe this time round.. i wun be drown? I might be able to learn how to swim (finally)?
What would u do if u are face with such a situation?
Life and death.
posted by icy at 2/23/2008 04:03:00 AM
I dun feel good.
Friday, February 22, 2008
Went out with Jason for dinner earlier.
He made a reservation at Giraffe (at Istana park) =)
it has a nice ambiance, however when i see the menu i was kinda disappointed becoz they do not have much variety in food and was kinda "unfriendly" to non-alcoholic drinkers!
yes yes, i dun drink much these days. (Ytd at zouk i didnt even drink anything.)
However, when our dinner arrived, i was quite surprise that its very tasty! =)
I am very happy with my salmon. =D
Had lychee tea and its quite nice too. =)
Aftermath, my cousin wanted to drink and was intending to head down to kbox when jason suggest gg over to his friend pub at boat quay.
(Sorry to say this but its kinda sleazy... Jason dun kill me. =X)
I didnt drink, Jane and my cousin did. haha. =P
We left very early as they have to go work early in the morning later...
-----
Jason's beef burger
My salmon! yum yum~
Jason and moi.
My cousin
Jane
Moi.
---------
Somehow, i felt alone for some reason.
Hmm...... i'm not pmsing.
just a sudden gust of feelings within me.
Just a sudden loneliness...
It will be gone soon enough.
=)
He made a reservation at Giraffe (at Istana park) =)
it has a nice ambiance, however when i see the menu i was kinda disappointed becoz they do not have much variety in food and was kinda "unfriendly" to non-alcoholic drinkers!
yes yes, i dun drink much these days. (Ytd at zouk i didnt even drink anything.)
However, when our dinner arrived, i was quite surprise that its very tasty! =)
I am very happy with my salmon. =D
Had lychee tea and its quite nice too. =)
Aftermath, my cousin wanted to drink and was intending to head down to kbox when jason suggest gg over to his friend pub at boat quay.
(Sorry to say this but its kinda sleazy... Jason dun kill me. =X)
I didnt drink, Jane and my cousin did. haha. =P
We left very early as they have to go work early in the morning later...
-----
Jason's beef burger
My salmon! yum yum~
Jason and moi.
My cousin
Jane
Moi.
---------
Somehow, i felt alone for some reason.
Hmm...... i'm not pmsing.
just a sudden gust of feelings within me.
Just a sudden loneliness...
It will be gone soon enough.
=)
posted by icy at 2/22/2008 12:41:00 AM
Busy Busy
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Every since CNY i have been having reunion lunches and dinners all over SG.
Finally started working on monday and i have been running here and there since then.
I'm so TIREDDDD!
freaking hell, if only i have more than 24hrs. =.=~
Just read the general fortune for PIGS this year.
It seems that i will have alot of tao hua during the year.
I wonder i true it is.
Dun think it applies to me.
My Vday was mj, lol.
i had no dates.
How can it be true! =X
----
I just realise, i have low tolerance level for people who thinks very highly of themselves. =.=~
Having confidence is good, having too much is a little too over bearing.
Sometimes opinions are important.
Too much of self opinion might kill a person.
In the past, i was such a person who do not listen to others, who only act according to what i deem is right.
I got burnt badly. i learn my lessons.
I used to act smart thinking that i know everything when actually i know nothing.
Thankfully i manage to kill that very bad side of me.
I begin to listen and begin to not say "i know" before someone finish off his/her sentence.
I still have this bad habit on and off.. but at least its not totally me anymore.
I learn to listen i learn to understand what others are trying to tell me. =)
Lessons in life is forever. Dun stop learning. Learnt to listen and see what others have been thru, there are alot others who have been thru more shit than you do.
I have been thru shit, but not shitty enough to make me understand how to be even better.
I guess i still have tons to go thru to be a someone up there someday. =)
Pics to shareee
Sunday i attended this charity dinner for the old folks. My ear drums nearly burst. The speakers was like 3 table away from us and they invited the 歌台 celebrities to come and sing for them. I absolutely do not understand a single word that the sing. =.=
Ying and moi... we were at the dinner together.
the torturous dinner.... at roland restaurant located at marine parade. i tell u.. the food sux like hell that i 吃不下. The worse 10 course dinner i ever had.
Mon
While waiting for my colleague to finish her appt.... I cam whored. lol.
Yes i very zi lian. =P
My pepper!
Isnt he cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now everyday once my mama reach home from work, she will start shouting pepper's name from below (i live 2nd floor only)
And we will open the door for pepper to go down and fetch my parents up.
Sweet right!!!!!!! =D
i love him sooooooooo much!
Finally started working on monday and i have been running here and there since then.
I'm so TIREDDDD!
freaking hell, if only i have more than 24hrs. =.=~
Just read the general fortune for PIGS this year.
It seems that i will have alot of tao hua during the year.
I wonder i true it is.
Dun think it applies to me.
My Vday was mj, lol.
i had no dates.
How can it be true! =X
----
I just realise, i have low tolerance level for people who thinks very highly of themselves. =.=~
Having confidence is good, having too much is a little too over bearing.
Sometimes opinions are important.
Too much of self opinion might kill a person.
In the past, i was such a person who do not listen to others, who only act according to what i deem is right.
I got burnt badly. i learn my lessons.
I used to act smart thinking that i know everything when actually i know nothing.
Thankfully i manage to kill that very bad side of me.
I begin to listen and begin to not say "i know" before someone finish off his/her sentence.
I still have this bad habit on and off.. but at least its not totally me anymore.
I learn to listen i learn to understand what others are trying to tell me. =)
Lessons in life is forever. Dun stop learning. Learnt to listen and see what others have been thru, there are alot others who have been thru more shit than you do.
I have been thru shit, but not shitty enough to make me understand how to be even better.
I guess i still have tons to go thru to be a someone up there someday. =)
Pics to shareee
Sunday i attended this charity dinner for the old folks. My ear drums nearly burst. The speakers was like 3 table away from us and they invited the 歌台 celebrities to come and sing for them. I absolutely do not understand a single word that the sing. =.=
Ying and moi... we were at the dinner together.
the torturous dinner.... at roland restaurant located at marine parade. i tell u.. the food sux like hell that i 吃不下. The worse 10 course dinner i ever had.
Mon
While waiting for my colleague to finish her appt.... I cam whored. lol.
Yes i very zi lian. =P
My pepper!
Isnt he cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now everyday once my mama reach home from work, she will start shouting pepper's name from below (i live 2nd floor only)
And we will open the door for pepper to go down and fetch my parents up.
Sweet right!!!!!!! =D
i love him sooooooooo much!
posted by icy at 2/20/2008 02:16:00 AM
I Flew today
Saturday, February 16, 2008
I flew today, and i only drank plain water the whole night. ( if u guys are wondering what i meant... i was at Dragonfly)
Saw Francis, Eric and Andy - the old gang from Devils.
Woot, its been a long time since i last see them.
DF was packed, like sardines.
I saw a fight right in front of me.
A girl was trying to fight with a guy while we were on our way to find our friends.
Had to walk one round to avoid it as they jammed up the hallway.
So... unglam. =/
Bouncers had to push her away to avoid the fight. Fierce sia.
Oh well... fights are pretty common in DF.
Do i sound very dead in this post? hmm..
Somehow i feel so, coz i feel dead now.
Cant seems to feel happy somehow. =(
Pics
The cupcakes from the shop at central. Oh man it sux big time. Cupcakedivinity one is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much better.. i miss their cupcakes! =X SOMEONE NICE PLEASE BUY FOR MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. =X
DF
Gary looks stone.. lol.
Dark dark pic...
Random Pics:
My Valentine's Dinner with LY and JC over at ikea. hahaha.
My Pepper sleeping positions
Look at his fat fat stomach......
Pepper is now 5kg.
Initially he was only 2.5kg. He put on 1.5kg in 1 month. =.=~
he keeps eating and biting and eating and biting! grr grr.
And he wakes me up every morning at 9am
jumping at my bed and biting my hands if it is within his reach. =.=
But now he knows "sit down" "up" and "shake hand"
Then again.. HE VERY NUAAAA
Everytime teh beside us hopes that we will sayang him. LOL.
My heart melts whenever i see him la. So cute!
but.. his owner is the food.
not me.
This is saddening. lol.
I love him! Love Him Love him! Altho he dun really love me. =/
Saw Francis, Eric and Andy - the old gang from Devils.
Woot, its been a long time since i last see them.
DF was packed, like sardines.
I saw a fight right in front of me.
A girl was trying to fight with a guy while we were on our way to find our friends.
Had to walk one round to avoid it as they jammed up the hallway.
So... unglam. =/
Bouncers had to push her away to avoid the fight. Fierce sia.
Oh well... fights are pretty common in DF.
Do i sound very dead in this post? hmm..
Somehow i feel so, coz i feel dead now.
Cant seems to feel happy somehow. =(
Pics
The cupcakes from the shop at central. Oh man it sux big time. Cupcakedivinity one is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much better.. i miss their cupcakes! =X SOMEONE NICE PLEASE BUY FOR MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. =X
DF
Gary looks stone.. lol.
Dark dark pic...
Random Pics:
My Valentine's Dinner with LY and JC over at ikea. hahaha.
My Pepper sleeping positions
Look at his fat fat stomach......
Pepper is now 5kg.
Initially he was only 2.5kg. He put on 1.5kg in 1 month. =.=~
he keeps eating and biting and eating and biting! grr grr.
And he wakes me up every morning at 9am
jumping at my bed and biting my hands if it is within his reach. =.=
But now he knows "sit down" "up" and "shake hand"
Then again.. HE VERY NUAAAA
Everytime teh beside us hopes that we will sayang him. LOL.
My heart melts whenever i see him la. So cute!
but.. his owner is the food.
not me.
This is saddening. lol.
I love him! Love Him Love him! Altho he dun really love me. =/
posted by icy at 2/16/2008 03:51:00 AM
Morning Anger
Friday, February 15, 2008
好心被。。。？
I was being nice, to buy some gifts for him from thailand.
I came back from Bkk for almost 1mth.
The presents are still sitting around at my place.
I need to constantly remind him that hey the presents still here when are u getting it.
On wed - i sms him yr presents are still with me. He said he will collected it tml.
On thurs - I sms him asked what time he coming, he say he cannot make it, he say he will collected it today.
On fri - I sms him ask him what time again. He say he on MC. Sorry he cannot make it. Promised to come on mon.
Why have to wait till i sms him that did he bother to tell me he's not coming?
I am utterly pissed and disappointed.
I'm just fulfilling my words that i would buy something for the mom.
He made me feel that i'm like bothering his life, pestering him.
grrrrrr.
I feel like an idiot.
I was being nice, to buy some gifts for him from thailand.
I came back from Bkk for almost 1mth.
The presents are still sitting around at my place.
I need to constantly remind him that hey the presents still here when are u getting it.
On wed - i sms him yr presents are still with me. He said he will collected it tml.
On thurs - I sms him asked what time he coming, he say he cannot make it, he say he will collected it today.
On fri - I sms him ask him what time again. He say he on MC. Sorry he cannot make it. Promised to come on mon.
Why have to wait till i sms him that did he bother to tell me he's not coming?
I am utterly pissed and disappointed.
I'm just fulfilling my words that i would buy something for the mom.
He made me feel that i'm like bothering his life, pestering him.
grrrrrr.
I feel like an idiot.
posted by icy at 2/15/2008 01:54:00 PM
Random Thoughts
A couple of my friends were kinda shocked that i do not have a valentine.
=/
very hard to believe meh?
he was like: "You sure no one asked u out? Not even one?"
YES! i'm SURE.
NOONE asked me out.
Or did i unknowingly rejected? no leh... i really dun have any one asking me out =(
(excluding David and Jason from my blog....)
However.... true enough...
My valentine for the day was Mahjong! Played with LY, JC and Bro Kurt.
Hahaha.. Lost 10bucks to LY.
Thinking back.
When was the last time.. i celebrated this day?
Till date, i do not have a definite .. clear memories of any man in my life did anything special on this day.
Maybe something did happen in the past.... but i have forgotten everything.
Except the first bouquet of flowers from reub that was sent to my place while i was out. Was it Vday or my birthday? i'm not sure either.
and...
The first present that JW bought for moi on his own accord was for vday. hahaha.
Another guy fren of mine was checking out with me, wat was the most.. touching thing that someone did for me for vday.
I told him straight in the face "nothing"
He was caught off guard and said sorry. lol.
Nothing to be sorry about.
Maybe i should feel sorry for myself, that noone has romance me before.
then again, I prefer practical man, so romance is out of question for such people.
If only....
I am a man. =/
My gf would be the most fortunate gf in this world.
lol.
I seriously have tons of ideas how to romance a girl. Unfortunately.. its not applicable in my life. This life. coz i'm not a bi. =(
-------
I am going thru a turbulence in my mood.
I'm not sure if i am happy or sad.
Maybe i should say i feel empty inside.
i dun feels lonely when i do not have a valentine.
Its the first time i do not have anyone by my side for vday.
I just feel that feb 14 is just like any other day.
And in the past... i dun think it this way.
Am i getting ... more and more oblivious to special days?
Even on CNY eve... i spent it alone at home playing Viwawa.
I no longer see a need to must die die go out or find someone to go out on these special days.
I can even spend one full day at home, watching shows, playing my game and together with my dog.
hmmmm....
Somehow i feel a change in me...
Not sure if its good or bad..
Maybe its good as i no longer... am so dependent on all my pals.
=)
at least.. now i know what i need to do. =)
=/
very hard to believe meh?
he was like: "You sure no one asked u out? Not even one?"
YES! i'm SURE.
NOONE asked me out.
Or did i unknowingly rejected? no leh... i really dun have any one asking me out =(
(excluding David and Jason from my blog....)
However.... true enough...
My valentine for the day was Mahjong! Played with LY, JC and Bro Kurt.
Hahaha.. Lost 10bucks to LY.
Thinking back.
When was the last time.. i celebrated this day?
Till date, i do not have a definite .. clear memories of any man in my life did anything special on this day.
Maybe something did happen in the past.... but i have forgotten everything.
Except the first bouquet of flowers from reub that was sent to my place while i was out. Was it Vday or my birthday? i'm not sure either.
and...
The first present that JW bought for moi on his own accord was for vday. hahaha.
Another guy fren of mine was checking out with me, wat was the most.. touching thing that someone did for me for vday.
I told him straight in the face "nothing"
He was caught off guard and said sorry. lol.
Nothing to be sorry about.
Maybe i should feel sorry for myself, that noone has romance me before.
then again, I prefer practical man, so romance is out of question for such people.
If only....
I am a man. =/
My gf would be the most fortunate gf in this world.
lol.
I seriously have tons of ideas how to romance a girl. Unfortunately.. its not applicable in my life. This life. coz i'm not a bi. =(
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I am going thru a turbulence in my mood.
I'm not sure if i am happy or sad.
Maybe i should say i feel empty inside.
i dun feels lonely when i do not have a valentine.
Its the first time i do not have anyone by my side for vday.
I just feel that feb 14 is just like any other day.
And in the past... i dun think it this way.
Am i getting ... more and more oblivious to special days?
Even on CNY eve... i spent it alone at home playing Viwawa.
I no longer see a need to must die die go out or find someone to go out on these special days.
I can even spend one full day at home, watching shows, playing my game and together with my dog.
hmmmm....
Somehow i feel a change in me...
Not sure if its good or bad..
Maybe its good as i no longer... am so dependent on all my pals.
=)
at least.. now i know what i need to do. =)
posted by icy at 2/15/2008 02:59:00 AM
Who wanna Be My Valentine?
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Hmmmmmmmm...
i dun have 1 tomorrow.
LOL..
Shall Mahjong be my valentine?
=D
i dun have 1 tomorrow.
LOL..
Shall Mahjong be my valentine?
=D
posted by icy at 2/13/2008 10:37:00 PM
i dun feel good.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
i dun feel good partially becoz i'm sick.
the other partially becoz, i feel........ alone?
i dunno.
i'm sick.
terribly.
and i miss a person's care and hug.
i'm a girl.
No matter how strong i look, how strong i portrait, there's always a time where i just wanna fall back on someone's shoulder.
and now is the period. =(
i feel alone. =(
the other partially becoz, i feel........ alone?
i dunno.
i'm sick.
terribly.
and i miss a person's care and hug.
i'm a girl.
No matter how strong i look, how strong i portrait, there's always a time where i just wanna fall back on someone's shoulder.
and now is the period. =(
i feel alone. =(
posted by icy at 2/12/2008 11:49:00 PM
=( I'm Down with flu again.
I think... my flu has become a routine..
Every alternate month, i'll be down with flu. =.=~!
My nose is now very congested.
Once again, Happy new year to all!
Sorry i was busy running here and take playing mahjong!
Very busy u know. lol.
dun even have time to online.
from noon gamble till night. hur hur hur.
dun even have time to take any pictures. hahahaha.
Sunday was Kurt's birthday and he jio-ed KTV at cineleisure.
I headed down in my dad's car.
and he freaking tell me cine carpark easy to park.
WAH KAOZ The ROAD DOWN TO THE CARPARK IS SCARY SIA!!!!!!!
and .... i scratch my dad's side mirror. =X
sianz. heng its only a small scratch. =X
my dad is gonna kill me when he finds out. =(
(and he found out today............ heng ah, i didnt get a major scolding.. coz i te-siao. say dunno what happen lol.)
Pics Pics!
Long long agoo... on the 5th Feb.. my 大哥 chris birthday.
He and his gf. =)
On Chu 3 Before going up to my ex-colleague's place
Chu 4: Kurt's Birthday
Us
and........ they went crazy no long after ... (after many rounds of 7-8-9)
Alfred trying to ... do something to jacob.
Fred joined in the fun
But somehow, he became the fun
with him.. at last being..bullied by all - if u realise there's alot of other hands. lol. (Poor fred. LOL!!!!!!)
After that... Jacob poses, alfred laughs. (becoz he bth jacob can 1 min be seh and the next min, poses for the camera!)
Pris and husband
Kurt and me and Jacob (jacob look like a monkey here.. hmmm...)
Kurt - the happy (on alcohol) birthday boy and Pris with alfred trying to poses for the camera from behind.. =.=
He changed his gay partner that night (from previously kenny to alfred)
lastly, Kurt and moi
Left at 1 as my car runs on Cinderella time. Dad needs the car at 2am. lol..
Every alternate month, i'll be down with flu. =.=~!
My nose is now very congested.
Once again, Happy new year to all!
Sorry i was busy running here and take playing mahjong!
Very busy u know. lol.
dun even have time to online.
from noon gamble till night. hur hur hur.
dun even have time to take any pictures. hahahaha.
Sunday was Kurt's birthday and he jio-ed KTV at cineleisure.
I headed down in my dad's car.
and he freaking tell me cine carpark easy to park.
WAH KAOZ The ROAD DOWN TO THE CARPARK IS SCARY SIA!!!!!!!
and .... i scratch my dad's side mirror. =X
sianz. heng its only a small scratch. =X
my dad is gonna kill me when he finds out. =(
(and he found out today............ heng ah, i didnt get a major scolding.. coz i te-siao. say dunno what happen lol.)
Pics Pics!
Long long agoo... on the 5th Feb.. my 大哥 chris birthday.
He and his gf. =)
On Chu 3 Before going up to my ex-colleague's place
Chu 4: Kurt's Birthday
Us
and........ they went crazy no long after ... (after many rounds of 7-8-9)
Alfred trying to ... do something to jacob.
Fred joined in the fun
But somehow, he became the fun
with him.. at last being..bullied by all - if u realise there's alot of other hands. lol. (Poor fred. LOL!!!!!!)
After that... Jacob poses, alfred laughs. (becoz he bth jacob can 1 min be seh and the next min, poses for the camera!)
Pris and husband
Kurt and me and Jacob (jacob look like a monkey here.. hmmm...)
Kurt - the happy (on alcohol) birthday boy and Pris with alfred trying to poses for the camera from behind.. =.=
He changed his gay partner that night (from previously kenny to alfred)
lastly, Kurt and moi
Left at 1 as my car runs on Cinderella time. Dad needs the car at 2am. lol..
posted by icy at 2/12/2008 10:55:00 PM
