Surrealistic Dream: June 2006

It actually Hurts?

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Haha. The tears that was frozen in my heart, is begining to defreeze.

The pain, that never came, is appearing once again.

Using alochol, to numb the pain, i went drinking again yesterday.

First it was MOS, then to devils.

Iris and i club hop ytd. LOL.

I almost cried in devils. But there isnt any tears.

Just felt a sudden pain there in my heart which i wanted so much to release it.

But i didnt cry. No, up till now, there's only tears. but not crying.

Time heals, yeah i know.

I just need more time to let it go..

But why am i still harbouring the hopes that he might call?..

I dun wanna wait for his calls anymore..

More clubbing, More alcohol, to numb the pain.

Sooner or later the pain will go. that i know.

posted by icy at 6/29/2006 05:48:00 PM

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Brianca's Birthday Celebration!

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Late post again. Been so freaking lazy to update anyway..

Pictures! Didnt take much as.... my camera low batt. >.<

The Birthday Girl and me

the ladies! Thorn among the roses? lol. Thats her god bro!

Another!

Me, Ning Ying & Nat!

Jane & me! My Jumpers Cute ma? hehehe..

Tada~

after which we headed down to MoMo to meet up with her bf. =P

Alcohol + R&B!

Fun Fun Fun!

Momo was not as crowded as it used to be. but the music wasnt that great as it was too. >.<

Ended around 4am and went home..

I wasnt drunk, but i was feeling fiaking uncomfortable as the journey back was damn long.. -.-"

In the end.. i vomitted. BOO!

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and.. Floyd Happy birthday!

Earlier, went down balcony to help that man celebrate his birthday when all his kakis are "trapped" with the government. MUAHAHAHA..

For the first time, i watched a full soccer match. Quite exciting even tho i never place bets. LOL.

Hmm.. Know him for years, but lost contact, and i actually forgotten everything about him!

Damn. So pai seh. I think my memory really suxs now. I have absolutely no memories of what he mention. =X

He said we have went out a few times before, but i seriously cannot remember a thing. thats how bad it was.

Maybe.. for the past 3 years, too much have happened to my life, that it had clogged up my memories.. >.<

or.. am i getting old? lol..

Sorry floyd! hehe.. hope u appreciate the "mini celebration!" =P

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"Tell me.. what do you want me to do.. I am really really confuse.."

posted by icy at 6/28/2006 03:15:00 AM

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爱我的资格

Sunday, June 25, 2006

歌曲：爱我的资格

把手放了
我也许会比较快乐
我也许会换个情人
我也许不会再撑
真的够了
能不能让雨别再下了
能不能让心别再疼了
能不能不要开灯
我们的爱跟着
你写的剧本
出现了越来越多的角色
我是你什么人
如果不是情人
是不是不要再浪费我的人生
你比我更清楚
你对我多好多温柔多认真
不构成爱我的资格
除非你只看着我想着我
只有我爱本来就该独一无二
为你伤心多一点少一点
流下的眼泪都一样不值得
世界上那么多人
只有我一个人能拯救自己的快乐
不要再为你哭了

posted by icy at 6/25/2006 03:04:00 AM

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Shopping again!

Thursday, June 22, 2006

hehehe.. i can never stop shopping no matter how broke i am..

Rebecca spree from Tw Auction!

Pink Pink!!!! Nice ma?? hhehehe~

Hehehehehe.. another ribbon~

Colourful hor? hehehe...

Bought 3 pairs! each $24 including shipping!

Consider cheap ba? =X

i spend too much on shopping liao laaaaaaaaaa....

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Spoke to an old friend yesterday, he was the one and only one who knows me inside out like a book.

This is what he told me "you dun sound happy, you sound as tho, your heart is heavy, your heart is sad. Yet, you are pretending hard to be happy. Whats wrong?" when i was talking as per usual, laughing at the jokes that we cracked.

I got a shock. I thought i hid myself well in front of everyone.

and i spoke to him about my confusion.

Things that he said.. is now constantly in my mind..

do you know, if a person love you, he will never hurt u?

do you know, if a person love you, he will protect you?

do you know, if a person love you, when u set him free, he will come back to you?..

do you think if a person loves you, he will not give you status?

do you think he cares about how are you feeling now?

do you think he really cares if you are out there waiting for him, waiting for his call?

do you think he really cares if you are confuse becoz of his confusion?

do you think.. he will stay if his ex gf came back to him?

or..

do you wanna wait, till he found a better one and then tell you, sorry you are not the one for me, so lets end it?

Think about this, when your friend, any friend, is sad, is troubled, did you really care about how they feel, or you just out of kindness show them you concern? Does it really bother you if any of your friends are sad? Yes, you may accompany them, you may talk to them, but will you be sad if they are sad?

He further explained..

"i am telling you this, is to let you realise, noone in this world, bothers about how u feel, what u thinking.. Even if they shown concern.. its just purely out of obligation or said becoz its words (they are cheap) its not truthfully from their heart.."

He again told me..

Each time, your r/s fails, you tell me you are in pain, you are bleeding, but dont you always make it through all those dark days?

...

He asked me to think about those questions and answer them myself.

He asked me to find a day, sit down and think through all the past r/s i had.. to learn my mistake, and grow up.

Will i.. be able to make that final decision soon?..

posted by icy at 6/22/2006 03:13:00 AM

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H..E..L..P..

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

SOMEONE.. PLEASE SAVE ME...

I AM DOING NOTHING EVERYDAY..

AND I FEEL SO USELESS AND BORED NOW...

HELP....

ASK ME OUT, DATE ME OUT.. GET ME A JOB.. WHATEVR.. JUST KEEP ME BUSY......

posted by icy at 6/20/2006 04:21:00 AM

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Recently....

Monday, June 19, 2006

Its been a long time since i post a long long one. hahaha..

no choice.. my life is boring recently. lol..

have been busy with downloading manga to read.

I have just finish 230 chapters of bleach and currently i'm onto ichigo 100%

Its so damn funny and cute lor. let u all see the pictures.

The story plot..

Junpei Manaka, sneaking away to the roof of his school, witnesses a beautiful girl falling in front of him. He sees the girl's strawberry patterned panties, and it's love at first (panties) sight.

He also believes that this scene would be perfect in a movie, as it's his dream to be a film director.

Inspecting the scene, he finds a notebook belonging to one Aya Toujo. His hopes that this is the mystery girl but he is crushed when he finds Aya to be a homely girl with thick glasses.

However, he finds out that Aya is a gifted writer, and confides his dreams with her.

Manaka's friends Komiyama and Okusa suggest the mystery girl could be Tsukasa Nishino, the prettiest girl in school.

Upon Aya's advice, Manaka confesses to her while doing pull-ups, and Nishino mysteriously agrees......

....

hehehe.. its so funny!

yeah.. thats what i have been for the past few days..

slacking at home downloading manga to read and just spent my day away.

=X

Boring hor?

I even downloaded half blood prince to read. =X

Hope thursday faster come ba. i'm gonna bored to death!!!!

posted by icy at 6/19/2006 02:26:00 AM

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我好想他

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

真的吗

离别的话我不想要现在清楚听见
而你可以不用回答什么都不要说
我的笑容没有快乐是否看得出来
昏黄的天别告诉我快下起雨了
清晨的风贴在脸上吹乾落下的泪
一整夜的思绪难眠等待你的回音
爱情没有太多理由可以不用要求
但希望你明白了解真心在这里
不像你爱可以轻松我真的爱你
爱你你还是走
i miss you i miss you i miss you
baby everyday i miss you
心里的深处思念依然在
你真的不再回来
i love youi love you i love you
baby everyday i love you
不要让我懂真的不想懂
想要躺在你胸口
(music)
不像你爱可以轻松
我真的爱你爱你你还是走
i miss you i miss you i miss you
baby everyday i miss you
心里的深处思念依然在你真的不再回来
i love youi love you i love you
baby everyday i love you
不要让我懂真的不想懂
想要躺在你胸口
i miss you i miss you i miss you
baby everyday i miss you
心里的深处思念依然在你真的不再回来
i love youi love you i love you
baby everyday i love you
不要让我懂真的不想懂想要躺在你胸口..

posted by icy at 6/14/2006 03:09:00 AM

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hmm

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Have been clubbing 2 days straight..

since friday. Devils, dance, alcohol.

I am.. so so blur today.

There's no hangover, but i just stoned. lol

Went over to pris place earlier to get the bridemaid's dress which she bought for us.

CuTE!

But i need more accessories. sigh, have to go down chinatown again to get my stuffs to try and create on my own. =X

So happy for her that she is gonna get married soon. Oh well..

We are afterall 23 le lor.

SIANZ..

Time flies. >.<

posted by icy at 6/11/2006 11:06:00 PM

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Last Day

Friday, June 09, 2006

It didnt hurt at all initially till i went home.

Alone, i Went in with him..

Tekong really looks like a resort to me. >.<

Am i Single now?

I seriously dunno.

Complicating.

and yes, i do miss him.

why did i tear now?

I dunno.

I'm all messed up.

I feel so lost.

For the past one year it was him and him alone.

So now what should i do?

Totally lost track on how my life is gonna be from now onwards.

I miss him. alot.

posted by icy at 6/09/2006 05:08:00 PM

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Another 2 days more.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Another 2 more days.

The last 2 days to create memories.

I might move to another blog after june 9th. For this blog is full of the memories.

This blog will stay as it is.. but i might not update it anymore.

I have not decide..

Anyway, More pictures.

Our Makeover done 2 weeks ago. =P

In another 2 more days all these will end..

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My Purchases.

Been shopping quite alot (AGAIN!)

Things that i have bought for the last few days.

From Maple Syrup (TW Auction)