My purchases from emily fish spree.. Co-organise by brianca and me again!!

hehehe..



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total damage.. $55.55!

Cheap right!! hahaha.. awaits for the stuffs to arrive! jia lat. no more sg shopping liao. i shop too much!!!!!

damn, i thought i could suppress it.

After dinner be back?.. haha..

*sigh* do not tell me things when you knew its not.

knowing well that it will not end after the dinner.. but i still hope that you might be back earlier.

thankfully someone is here to accompany me. if not i'll go crazy again.

Thanks to my low confidence, its eating me up again.

No i do not wanna possess. No i do not wanna feel that sour feeling.

Its not my intention to. Never it was.. never..

But, its a progression over my side.

I no longer cry. I no longer feel the painful feeling i once feel every time.

Maybe, i am preparing mentally the lost in one month time.

Or maybe, i have finally mastered the art of suppressing myself.

Or maybe, i am begining to accept the truth.

Its never mine to begin with.

一个没有结果情...

A one side love. A one side feel.

hatred.. no calls. nothing.

why. why am i still here.

why do i still persist on towards a man who show no love.

why am i still loving someone who dun give a damn about me.

why.

why is my character so fucked up.

why am i so weak.

why am i so unappreciated.

why am i.. why am i still here..

why am i still hoping and waiting that he will at least give me a call.. no..

i wanna stop. stop it.

i cant. drinking. let me drink till i drunk so i can sleep peacefully now.

finally, my investment paper is over. *sigh*

i am preparing another 1600 for tt module. i confirm failing my exam for tt freaking investment..

just hope that all overall will be able to pull a "PASS" for it.. =(

Next up coming paper.. OTD.. Organisation theory & design. Freaking dry subject.

sianz.

Just went on a crazy shopping mode the day b4. On an impulse... i bought 2 tops.

I lazy take pics.. but one is from MING in Heeren and another from 37 Degree.

+ a top for him..

hehehe.. Total.. i spent 100! =X

Finally the taiwan bag spree is completed. the bag i bought is exactly the same as the pics shown in that auction!



i can extend it to a sling bag..



and i bought a new earring!! like the taiwan series Devils beside you starring Yang Chen Ling!



The earring IRL.. i bought the pink one!!



And from another taiwan auction spree that brianca and i organised.. Cutie Fashion!
This cost NT250 ! which is.. about $13.75! hehe..



and..



weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... gonna organise another spree soon.. from Taiwan auction too! hehe..

this time gonna purchase some nice dresses. Got a few dinners to attend soon. =D

Nothing beats what a retail therapy could do!!!! I AM SIMPLY IN LOVE WITH ONLINE SHOPPING!!! lol~

and ya.. thanks for priscilla i am getting my OTO Trimax soon!!! May 1st!! when i get my progress bonus!! thanks for making another of my wish come true!! *MUACK*~

Needa go study liao.. Freaking exams. GRRR..

Painful truth, fresh in my mind.

Hurtful words, going through my brain.

My ego, pride and confidence i once had, was gone on that night.

its once again, fresh in my mind. Those words.

Again, i saw her.

Didnt know whether to go ahead and say hi or pretend not to see.

I chose to pretend, as i couldnt face her.

I lost my mood on my studies and left for home.

Noone understand or feel how i feel.

putting yourself in my shoe. Try and feel if those words are said to you instead.

I wish i could forget, but i cant.

Yes, its been a year.

Yes, its a past.

I thought time could let those invisible knife be gone.

But it didnt.

Each time, when it was triggered, it would be fresh.

fresh wounds will appear again and again on the scar that still lingers in my heart.

Try and put yrself in my shoes.. if this happens to you..

是你的就是你的..
不是你的永远.. 都不属于你..

how true.

Regardless of how much u chase, how much you give,

if he/she is not meant to be, he/she will never be yours to begin with.

If you cant be confident of yourself within a relationship,

doubts, distrust, fear of losing will arise frequently.

Always been able to lend a listening ear, and giving suggestions on how to tackle a problem..

Trying hard to learn from their problems..

But i'm simply too stubborn to listen to other advices.

PMS? Nah..

I just wanna share my thoughts..

Love isnt just simply loving..

There's alot of factor to contribute.

Jealousy always arises, not only becoz of a person's character.

it all bolts down to your confidence level.

Do you know, how confidence are you towards yourself and the relationship is very important?

Jealousy and possessiveness often arises becoz of that one factor..

Ti Gong, Mighty God, Goddness of Mercy, All gods!!

Please Bo Pi me pass my investment exam ah~~..

*PRAYS HARD HARD*

I'm shit. exam on the 25th and i still know nuts about investment.

Whats Hedge??!! whats Modified Duration??!! whats Portfolio Managment?!!!

whats Macaulay Duration!! whats APT!!! AHHH... P/E ratio... FCFE.. P/BV ratio...

siao liao la.. how to memorise...

haiz haiz haiz. I'm doomed.......

I think needa........................ burn book and drink liao. will it work? LOL!!..

On a happier note, for the past 2 days, he has been sending me to study~ *Happiness*

Thank you~! >.<

I got another new toy!! *Grinz Widely*

Bought for $40, from brianca. *MUACK* love her lots. ehehe..




hehe..



These 2 days have been together with my colleagues from marina sq! From left.. Me, Vanessa, Jayce, Charmaine & Joelene!



The odd one out... the only guy representative from marina sq boutique... Gunn! lol..



The cake!



Make a wish my sweetie.. happy 18th birthday.. YOU MAKE ME FEEL OLD! ARGH. lol..



Joelene & Bf! Think this couple.. everytime chiong ktv one. THEIR VOICE DAMN POWER LOR.. *Envy* Joe has a very nice vocal...!!! and this one one cute couple. lol. they keep "fighting" in the ktv. hahaha!! so funny!!



The 3...



The 2.. tallest.. among us. grrrr... lol.. i wish to grow taller.. =( LOL!!



Ended the KTV around 3am. Birthday girl, van and jayce left early. My camera went dead in the middle of the session. lol.. never charge my camera.. Haiz. >.< but fun la. hehe.. i still love partyworld! its so much better than kbox (i feel) space is bigger and cheaper if you go in groups!

Once upon a time.. (BAH.. Cheezy start. >.<)

there live a girl in the north side of Singapore.. She was a simple and fun loving girl.. who yearn to meet the man of her dreams.

Initially.. she thought she found the one when she was 18.. until that fateful day where that man crashed her only dream and cast her into darkness..

So afraid of loneliess... she seek refuge at a lan shop.. where she met a lot of new friends..

Even tho she was laughing together with those new friends.. Internally.. she was crying. Noone knew.. Noone sense.. that She was hiding the truth underneath her cheerful smiles.. which she has mastered a long time ago..

Only him, who knew and took pity of that girl. He began to accompany her as his school was near her home. Out of pity… that they met frequently… out of pity.

She.. was lonely.. crying almost every night. Sleepless almost every night.. She thought.. maybe this man can helped me.. a bound back..

After.. a few weeks.. they got together. Out of loneliness, not love. A mistake made from the very beginning.

It lasted for 4 months. She had already… place most of her feelings into the relationship.. but he.. didn’t. he gave up 4 months later.. as he strongly feels that their character clashes with each other.

They broke up. She cried even harder then previously. Her heart almost couldn’t take the pain.. Thanks to her good friend A.. who accompanied her some of her days.. still…

She started searching for another.. as this time.. the loneliness was even harder to bare.. because.. she was together with that man everyday. With the sudden disappearance of that man… she couldn’t put her life back in one piece.

She met another. They got together. But she knew deep down.. she couldn’t forget.

She still kept in touch with that man. With occasional conversations held between them… and occasional meet up.. together with their common friend B.

A year later… she with the other broke up….

Disillusion with relationship, she begins to look for companion rather than relationship. She went back to that man side.

Just for the fun of it. Just for company. Just to kill loneliness. Instead.. it grew into something.. that she cant handle… love..

After a few weeks.. he revealed to her.. that he got together with B before.. and that.. during the occasional meet up… they had been together… he told the girl.. a lot of information.. which she don’t need to know.. which she rather not know.. but due to her own curiousity……….. and his insensitiveness.. thinking that the girl wouldn’t mind… it hurts… she tried putting it behind her.. but she simply cant.

She no longer talks to the common friend…

She bare with it.. gulping it down into her heart, throwing away her pride.. she stayed on. Because.. she can no longer do without that man.

With her energy and her time.. together with her heart.. she tried very hard to touch that man’s heart.. hoping one day.. he would realize.. she is just beside him.. waiting for his attention. Months after months, she was waiting for the day that he will accept her.

He.. was confused. He didn’t know to let go or not. Afraid to make the choice. Fearing of making the wrong choice.

He wanted to have fun..

A few months later.. the girl was hurt once again..

He hide the truth and was found out. He brought another girl back home… He thought the girl wouldn’t know.. since the other girl was only at his place for a few hours.

The girl found out accidentally… and her world crashed.. in her heart.. she only feel… pain. Unbearable pain. She asked if he has fallen for that girl.. he couldn’t reply..

She wanted to leave.. but too much was put in to let go.. they decided to give themselves till the man’s mum bd… to make the decision. To let go or not…

Joke? She wonders.. for.. it didn’t end. The man realize he actually miss the girl when she’s not around..

He decided to give it another try..

He gave her surprises.. he shown her care.. concern.. but never once.. his full heart..

They were happy for a moment… till one day… he become conscious that this is going nowhere…

He told her his decision.. to end it when he goes into manhood.

It was then.. it dawn on her.. time is running short…

She have less than a few months..

she only prays that.. she could build more happy memories for them..

She only wish that the man.. would remember her for life..

That’s all she wanted…

while she.. will always remember... the watch.. the.. surprise birthday cake.. the earring that they each owns 1.. the care and concern.. the gentleness of him...

She still prays that.. one day... he might.. he might.. go back to her...

But she knew very well... its impossible.

On sat, brianca and i went to janson's house warming party.

i felt sick AGAIN, due to my investment project (spending a total of 19hrs straight at the freaking proj)

brianca was so sweeet.. she actually went out and bought a bottle of barley for me..

*touched*

we stayed till 11pm and her friend "VIVIAN" (her guy fren's actual name lor! *SHOCK*) sent us home.. he is so nice. lol.
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2nd week of june..

the day that everything will turn into memories..

the day that everything will soon be gone..

the day where i no longer need to give, no longer need to stay..

the day.. where he will soon be gone from my life.

is finally made known.

Saddness? Hurt?

I dunno. i cant feel. cause i have been waiting for that day to be confirmed.

only left with 2 months, to create happy memories.

only left with 2 months, to do things that i wanted to do together with you.

No matter, how much my heart want, i wont ask you to stay.

For.. i know its useless, if you dun feel for me like i do.

The ending will soon be marked..

The story.. of how much i have done for him.. is coming to a closure..

This stage of my life.. will soon come to an end..

2 months.. another 2 more months..

2 more weeks to my exam.. (again!)

time fast sia.. another 1/2 year gonez.

super sianz

its another "Bi Guan Xiu Lian" period.

hopefully.. this year would be shun shun!!!

Officially.. my group mates and i have spent 18hrs on our investment project and still going..

all if us are totally shacked out..

Stoning now.. if you just place a bed right beside me.. i'll just go into concussion.

I only slept 4hrs ytd.

I am.. freaking.. tired now.....

Finally bought my laptop for 1840.

Nothing fabulous, just a device for me to do my project.

from acer! =D



the front view..


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Pictures taken from the fashion show today! Buffalo's officially opening!

I only manage to take pictures after the fashion show.. as i was helping out behind scene with the models.

Bah.. but anyway it was fun helping the models to dress up.

Now i finally understand how does it feel to be behind the scene where everyone was helping everyone and rushing to make sure everyone is on time!

The whole management



The 3 babes of the store (LOL!!)



with Star idol & Super star contestant & Eileen (TCS Star)!



The models during the fashion show!



Irene Ang!



with Sassygirl Charmaine!



Gunn Vanessa and Joelene!



Gunn & me in our storeroom!



Mirror Image!



Finally.. after work..



tired tired tired.. now i have to rush my investment project!!! >.<

I love both of you Joelene and Vanessa~ Tho i'm leaving le.. but still.. i will miss both of you badly! =(

cry liao.

Stress.

Investment project is the toughest i have done so far.

Now breaking out into cold sweat every now and then.

Staring at tons of numbers wondering which one is the correct one to be pluck into the formula.

its driving me crazy.

HELP!!!

From next week onwards, i will no longer be under Buffalo's mercy.

Enough of being nice to them. The management suxs like hell.

they price their clothes 3 times the cost price. and even force us to purchase their clothes as part of the uniform at 50% off.

Politics is so.. overwhelming over there.

We part timers are always at the losing end.

Whenever there's any mistakes in promotion, or whatever, its always the store's fault.

Our director is a 2 headed snake.

In front of us, very nice, behind us, backstabbing us, say we this, we that, dun trust us, etc.

Our store manager, kanna bully until he bth, he also cannot stand up for himself. *sigh*

After 4 months, of working with them.. i had enough of their shit.

From next week onwards, i will start tutoring liao. Hope everything will go on smoothly! *prays*

No wonder she made so many enemies out there. with her kinda of management style, i dont think she will ever make it big.

oh, by quitting, i think she must be thinking i am also one of her investor spy coming here to spoil her business, steal her ideas, etc.

the director of buffalo, CMI.