i fear..
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
i fear opening up my blog.
i dunno why.
i dun really want any more strangers reading them.
unlike the past.
is it because i'm growing older
or is it because i'm growing more private.
thats not true!
i'm still talking sex as openly as possible to every tom dick or harry that i met!
(of coz not to my clients..)
i'm still sharing everything abt myself to friends~
but..
why have i lost the courage to open up my tiny blog?
i did open for a few days..
and after that i locked it again.
coz..
i dunno why i just dun feel comfortable opening again.
yet at the same time..
if i dun open it up i dun update it!
lol..
ok..
i'll.. open it up again..
HI EVERYONE~
have u been missing emo chin?
or have you been missing crazy chin?!
i havent been taking pictures because i rebonded my hair and is still trying to make it more pong!
cause now quite flat!
furthermore i have left my cam with my god sis and only got it back recently. haha.
thats more of that reason.
my dearest readers, i hope you guys havent been missing me much.
and if i ever do lock up my blog again, can you plsss take down my email address..
just email me yr address and i'll add you in.
cause most likely i think i'll set it private again..
unless i get used to blogging publicly again...
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it was a crazy weekend, i organise jess jie bd party @ ECP..
PLS.. SINCE THE LAST TIME I WENT THERE (like 2 years ago)..
the fucking management still hasnt changed.
i fucking hate them..
we actually had to return bk the bbq pit before they refund us our money when the flyers wrote they will collect it at 11am the next day.
best still when the fucking stupid manager will just next to me and fucking gave me attitude as thou i was in the fucking wrong.
what kind of service standard is that?!
FUCK ECP CHALET! aint gg back there anymore! PUI~
i dunno why.
i dun really want any more strangers reading them.
unlike the past.
is it because i'm growing older
or is it because i'm growing more private.
thats not true!
i'm still talking sex as openly as possible to every tom dick or harry that i met!
(of coz not to my clients..)
i'm still sharing everything abt myself to friends~
but..
why have i lost the courage to open up my tiny blog?
i did open for a few days..
and after that i locked it again.
coz..
i dunno why i just dun feel comfortable opening again.
yet at the same time..
if i dun open it up i dun update it!
lol..
ok..
i'll.. open it up again..
HI EVERYONE~
have u been missing emo chin?
or have you been missing crazy chin?!
i havent been taking pictures because i rebonded my hair and is still trying to make it more pong!
cause now quite flat!
furthermore i have left my cam with my god sis and only got it back recently. haha.
thats more of that reason.
my dearest readers, i hope you guys havent been missing me much.
and if i ever do lock up my blog again, can you plsss take down my email address..
just email me yr address and i'll add you in.
cause most likely i think i'll set it private again..
unless i get used to blogging publicly again...
--
it was a crazy weekend, i organise jess jie bd party @ ECP..
PLS.. SINCE THE LAST TIME I WENT THERE (like 2 years ago)..
the fucking management still hasnt changed.
i fucking hate them..
we actually had to return bk the bbq pit before they refund us our money when the flyers wrote they will collect it at 11am the next day.
best still when the fucking stupid manager will just next to me and fucking gave me attitude as thou i was in the fucking wrong.
what kind of service standard is that?!
FUCK ECP CHALET! aint gg back there anymore! PUI~
posted by icy at 3/30/2010 01:31:00 AM
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i'm feeling nausea
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
i feel sick in the stomach.
about myself.
and i came to realise that perhaps its good to.. take a step back once again.
I'm too.. dependent.
i'm once again getting too dependent.
and if things dun go my way.
i go crazy.
yeah.
the other extreme end of mine.
i'm trying to take a deep breathe and relax.
it aint good as it will just kill him off.
it aint good as it makes me feel sick about myself.
i'm just getting too deep inside.
and its getting a little out of hand.
i needa control my emotions. and i'm trying to stay rational.
it just makes me crazy when i dun get what i want.
and its wrong.
there's seriously something wrong this this fucking character of mine.
and i just cant seems to mellow that down.
thats why i chose to just shut myself up and think.
to go thru in my mind and rationalise everything before i open my mouth and say the wrong things.
what the fuck is wrong with me.
its just so wrong to feel what i'm feeling now.
to feel anger and frustrations that why things didnt go my way.
=.=
i'm fucking unreasonable right now.
and i dun wanna show this unreasonable side of me to anyone.
its just a fucking small issue man. whats wrong with me?!
=.=
i just feel sick abt myself.
and not only that
i'm pissed with myself.
yet again
it also shows that i'm fucking sinking too much and i wanna just spend more time because i knew the next chance is gonna be fucking long away.
however, i should stop trying to think what others wanted when they already changed their mind from the very beginning and its just u and u alone. YES ME and ME alone that wants it this way. FUCK U BITCH.
wake up yr ideas BITCH. you are just fucking sinking in. =.=
rational!! stay fucking rational will u.
dun fucking let yr fucking emotions get the better of u u bitch.
ok too much vulgarities.
but i'm in a destruction mode now.
needa self destruct in order to attain a better me.
yes, i need to fucking gain HIGHER and HIGHER control of my emotions.
i'm losing control over it. and its not healthy.
remember yr past my dear remember it dearly.
the idiotic things that u fucking do when yr emotions get the better of u.
stay rational.
about myself.
and i came to realise that perhaps its good to.. take a step back once again.
I'm too.. dependent.
i'm once again getting too dependent.
and if things dun go my way.
i go crazy.
yeah.
the other extreme end of mine.
i'm trying to take a deep breathe and relax.
it aint good as it will just kill him off.
it aint good as it makes me feel sick about myself.
i'm just getting too deep inside.
and its getting a little out of hand.
i needa control my emotions. and i'm trying to stay rational.
it just makes me crazy when i dun get what i want.
and its wrong.
there's seriously something wrong this this fucking character of mine.
and i just cant seems to mellow that down.
thats why i chose to just shut myself up and think.
to go thru in my mind and rationalise everything before i open my mouth and say the wrong things.
what the fuck is wrong with me.
its just so wrong to feel what i'm feeling now.
to feel anger and frustrations that why things didnt go my way.
=.=
i'm fucking unreasonable right now.
and i dun wanna show this unreasonable side of me to anyone.
its just a fucking small issue man. whats wrong with me?!
=.=
i just feel sick abt myself.
and not only that
i'm pissed with myself.
yet again
it also shows that i'm fucking sinking too much and i wanna just spend more time because i knew the next chance is gonna be fucking long away.
however, i should stop trying to think what others wanted when they already changed their mind from the very beginning and its just u and u alone. YES ME and ME alone that wants it this way. FUCK U BITCH.
wake up yr ideas BITCH. you are just fucking sinking in. =.=
rational!! stay fucking rational will u.
dun fucking let yr fucking emotions get the better of u u bitch.
ok too much vulgarities.
but i'm in a destruction mode now.
needa self destruct in order to attain a better me.
yes, i need to fucking gain HIGHER and HIGHER control of my emotions.
i'm losing control over it. and its not healthy.
remember yr past my dear remember it dearly.
the idiotic things that u fucking do when yr emotions get the better of u.
stay rational.
posted by icy at 3/24/2010 01:55:00 AM
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DD Private Bd celebration/ Fred Hospitalisation/Kimis
Tuesday, March 09, 2010
the cake i did at the icing room!
woohoO!
a wish!
hee.
--
Fred was hospitalised few weeks bk. because of infection at his intestines. he wasnt allowed to eat and drink for 2 days and was on drip..
this is what his buddies did to him. LOL~~
--
iphone application -lmikimis!!
so fun!!! i can how edit my pics like a pro!!
woohoO!
a wish!
hee.
--
Fred was hospitalised few weeks bk. because of infection at his intestines. he wasnt allowed to eat and drink for 2 days and was on drip..
this is what his buddies did to him. LOL~~
--
iphone application -lmikimis!!
so fun!!! i can how edit my pics like a pro!!
posted by icy at 3/09/2010 12:51:00 PM
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CNY 2010
red red us with red red car!
my red red bag proudly given by DD~~~
my gift for him. =D
to chun dao he pan!
after that shanghai dollies with them~
yeah.. he and his.. erm.. ya.
on the last 2nd day of the CNY, jon my poly mate invited me to his party @ fullerton.
its the biggest suite in fullerton i think.
as usual..
the living room!
us! Marketing class in NYP!
the CNY gathering held @ his ex poly fren place..
=D that sums up my cny 2010~
my red red bag proudly given by DD~~~
my gift for him. =D
to chun dao he pan!
after that shanghai dollies with them~
yeah.. he and his.. erm.. ya.
on the last 2nd day of the CNY, jon my poly mate invited me to his party @ fullerton.
its the biggest suite in fullerton i think.
as usual..
the living room!
us! Marketing class in NYP!
the CNY gathering held @ his ex poly fren place..
=D that sums up my cny 2010~
posted by icy at 3/09/2010 12:28:00 PM
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Its a Meaning event
its a meaningful event for me. Oneshift organised a charity event for the forumers where we were to bring 20kids fm the children home (where they are mostly fm either broken families, abused families or their parents are both in jail and they are not sponsored by the children society) out to the marina barrage for a tour and a ride at the flyer sponsored by us.
and yes, i will be more active in such activities this yr on. thats what make a person useful isnt? contributing back to the society, making those that needs our care and concern happy.
thats the new carol chin. =)
posted by icy at 3/09/2010 12:12:00 PM
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today is a good day
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
and i'm in a good mood.
therefore i'm opening up my blog again~ woohoo!
sorry for not updating.. because blog close no reader so lazy also..
tons of pictures to be uploaded!
will do so within this week.
any news abt my life?
hell yeah!
i'm looking for houses already!
=DD
no, there's no diamond ring yet.
No, there's no wedding bells yet.
Yes, its just the roof only.
Bto exercise this yr alot!
must heng heng find a good one!
i hope.
cross moi tiny fingers.
and i'm working harder this yr.
coz last yr i gave up. i fell hard.
this yr i'm restarting again. back to basic. everything start fm sq one.
no i will not be hanging out with the same people day in day out like last yr.
yes i said i will make changes and i did.
i'm now volunteering at YEC henderson, and Lion club.
I'm now more active in charity and learning how to do charity.
i'm knowing more ppl, making my life more meaningful.
its 2010. its gonna be a smashing great year ahead!
therefore i'm opening up my blog again~ woohoo!
sorry for not updating.. because blog close no reader so lazy also..
tons of pictures to be uploaded!
will do so within this week.
any news abt my life?
hell yeah!
i'm looking for houses already!
=DD
no, there's no diamond ring yet.
No, there's no wedding bells yet.
Yes, its just the roof only.
Bto exercise this yr alot!
must heng heng find a good one!
i hope.
cross moi tiny fingers.
and i'm working harder this yr.
coz last yr i gave up. i fell hard.
this yr i'm restarting again. back to basic. everything start fm sq one.
no i will not be hanging out with the same people day in day out like last yr.
yes i said i will make changes and i did.
i'm now volunteering at YEC henderson, and Lion club.
I'm now more active in charity and learning how to do charity.
i'm knowing more ppl, making my life more meaningful.
its 2010. its gonna be a smashing great year ahead!
posted by icy at 3/02/2010 12:47:00 PM
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